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A happy woman

Amy Le Feuvre

before the fire. "Now," she said, "we have another surprise for you! Mrs. Laird has gone to sleep, and I do not want to wake her, but she asked me to show you the surprise. Will you come this way?" She stepped out into the passage and opened the door of what had been a lumber-room. It was behind the kitchen and looked out into the garden. Graham could hardly believe his eyes. All the boxes and rubbish had disappeared. A dark crimson carpet was on the floor, and the same coloured curtains to the big square window. There was a square table with a new desk and inkstand, two big leather armchairs. A bureau with a glass bookcase on top, and a roomy cupboard in a recess. Some old prints lined the walls which were covered with a grey paper. A small bright fire flickered in the grate. It looked as it was meant to look, a man's room waiting for him to occupy it. "Your mother thought of everything. She was horrified that you had written, and read, and smoked, and ate in the same room—the dining-room." "It did not seem worth while to move from it," said Graham. "I really shan't know myself. What a revolutionary person you are, Miss Darlington!" "But it isn't me! It is your mother." "Yes—yes—but you have carried out her wishes, and aided and abetted her all through. I am in luck! Dear little mother!" He looked round him as pleased as any boy, and then Sara slipped away. And Graham sank into one of the big chairs, pulled it close to the fire, and lighting up his pipe gave himself up to some very pleasant reflections. The next day he went off early to interview Sir Malcolm, but got home in time for lunch, and found Mrs. Laird downstairs and quite herself again. At lunch, he began to talk of his visit to Dalby. "Cousin Anna was overjoyed to see me," he said. "I found her a pitiful little creature, overtaxing her brains and strength by multiplicity of good deeds, and being defrauded right and left by a most obnoxious rogue of a secretary. She had just begun to find him out, and was terrified of convicting him of dishonesty. I went to her in the nick of time, for I spent a good day and night studying his books, and then gave him the sack on the spot. She is one of the frailest little creatures I have seen, does a man's work, and does not seem to have a single capable person about her. The only person I saw who seems to have any gumption is a sad overworked girl, a kind of companion to her, I fancy. She, Cousin Anna told me, is her right hand in most of her charitable objects, and it was she who opened her eyes to the delinquencies of the secretary." "And what about her colliery?" asked Mrs. Laird. "Is she still working that? Is that in a satisfactory condition?" "I should doubt it, for she is always changing her agents. She says she must have a Christian man at the head of it. And her so-called Christian men prove failures from a business point of view." "Poor Anna, she always was queer from a girl!" said Mrs. Laird. "Have you been able to find her another secretary?" "Not yet. I want to overhaul her accounts a bit first. I have brought a batch of books away with me, and promised her I will go back for a day or two, till she gets straight again." "You are not going away again?" "Not for long, mother. I couldn't leave my work here. I may run up for a week-end." "I don't really see why you should worry over Anna's business affairs. Can't she engage a lawyer to work for her?" Graham smiled. "She says she doesn't trust lawyers, and she's a woman who likes to keep the reins in her own hand. The consequence is that only inferior and incapable people will work with her. But she has given me 'carte blanche' to do what I like, provided I pull her out of her difficulties." "How can you be in two places at once?" said Mrs. Laird. "Sir Malcolm takes up all your time here." "Oh, I can do a good deal in a week-end. I should have the whole of Sunday up there, and could get through a good bit of work in it." A sudden silence fell on them. Then Graham began to tell them about his Scotch visit, and he was more animated than Sara had ever yet seen him. Later in the day, he happened to come through the garden as Sara was trimming some dead flowers and tying up her chrysanthemums. He stopped and began to assist her. His help was very welcome, and Sara said as she thanked him— "Your rôle in life seems to be to help us women." "It's the least I can do. I feel so sorry for my poor little cousin. She is too guileless, and is taken in right and left. If she would only not try to mix up religion with business she would get on much better." "I don't agree." "No, I know you don't. But the fact is there. These Christian secretaries and agents are all rogues and hypocrites. They are fleecing her." "Then that proves they are not genuine Christians. There is always the counterfeit article, is there not?" He did not reply for a moment, then he said, abruptly— "I saw disapproval stamped upon your face when I mentioned working for her on Sunday. Now, doesn't your Bible say somewhere that you can rescue an animal on a Sunday? Is it more wicked to rescue a human being, especially a little saint? If I don't do something for her, she'll drift into a regular quagmire of debt." "I don't think she will let you work for her on Sunday," said Sara. "You are a Christian, aren't you? We are all bound to respect the day of rest." "I am bound to nothing. I never go to church, as you know." "I am hoping you will go with your mother next Sunday." "Why?" "It will please her, and will do you good." "I wish I could see things as you do. But religion has never influenced me as a practical thing. And I am essentially practical and matter-of-fact." "True religion is absolutely practical. May I quote St. James? What can be more practical than his definition of it. "'Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.'" "The latter condition is very vague." Sara shook her head. "We won't argue. But has not your mother's altered state of mind proved that religion is very real and practical?" "But I don't put down my mother's improved health to her religious views. It is your vivid personality that has impressed and changed her. "Nothing of the sort," said Sara, emphatically. "I could live with her for fifty years and never be able to bring her peace of mind. She has given herself into the keeping of our Master. He brought her into touch with Himself, and she lives every day of her life now wholly dependent on Him for strength and guidance." "You may fancy that, but it is your—shall I call it mesmeric influence that plays upon her heart. If you went away, what would happen? Why, ten chances to one, my mother would lapse into her old depression of spirit." "Not now," said Sara, firmly. "Now, Miss Darlington, do you really believe that the Creator of the Universe would take the trouble to pick out my mother as His special charge?" "Certainly I do. What are we told? "'Thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy: I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones.'" "You must know your Bible by heart," said Graham, with a little smile. "I still maintain that you, rather than our Creator, influence my mother." "I should almost like to go away from her to prove how wrong you are." "Oh, please don't do that! What a discussion we are having. I am only too thankful for my mother's improved health and spirits—whatever may be the cause!" The subject dropped. But the following Sunday, Graham did accompany his mother to church, and Mrs. Laird was very happy in consequence. He drove her there and back, but Sara preferred to walk across the hills by herself. As Graham and his mother were returning, Mrs. Laird said— "I have missed a great deal of happiness all these years; what a blessing Sara has been to us all!" "Would you miss her if she left you?" "Very much indeed. She is not thinking of doing so, is she?" "Not that I know of, but I suppose she will be wanting a change some time. Would you be very miserable without her?" "My dear boy," and Mrs. Laird put her hand gently on his arm, "I don't think I shall ever be miserable again. I have new life in my soul. It's just as we were hearing this morning, 'The Lord guides us continually and satisfies our souls in drought.' I have Him with me. And though I have lived most of my life without Him, He has forgiven the past, and now fills me with joy." "Very wonderful," murmured Graham, and he said no more. It was not long before he paid another visit to his old cousin. He was only three or four days away, but he did not spend Sunday there, and then he made an astonishing proposal to his mother the day before he returned. "May I bring back Cousin Anna's young helper, a Miss Godwin? She has had an attack of influenza, and is run down and badly needs a change. Our beautiful hills will soon set her up again, and Cousin Anna is quite willing to spare her." "A strange girl!" exclaimed Mrs. Laird to Sara. "How can we do it? We never have visitors. There is no spare room. And how can we entertain her when she comes? I have seen so few people that I am shy of meeting strangers. If it were Anna herself, it would be different." "I think you might manage it," said Sara, persuasively. "There is an empty room at the top of the house which I could move into, and give her mine. You wouldn't have to entertain her. I expect it is rest she needs. She would be quite happy, I am sure, if she were allowed to amuse herself." "I shouldn't like you to turn out of your room at all, for you are close to me, and I should miss you." "Very well, if you give me leave, I am sure I could make that top room cosy for her." Mrs. Laird made no further objections, and Sara took Izzie to help her, and worked very hard all that day and the next. But the result fully paid her for her trouble. The little room looked quite fresh and dainty, and Izzie was wildly excited at the prospect of a strange young lady coming to stay with them. The travellers arrived by an early afternoon train, so that they reached the house by five o'clock, and there was an abundant tea waiting for them in the drawing-room. Mrs. Laird was quite composed when she greeted the stranger; Sara looked at her with real interest. She was a tall slim girl, with auburn hair, beautiful hazel eyes, and a small white face and pointed chin. Her complexion was delicate and transparent. When she got a little flush upon her cheeks from the fire where she stood to warm herself, Sara thought her very pretty. But her face in repose lacked animation, and she was very shy. Yet once, when Sara laughed, she looked up at her quickly with a flash of light in her eyes, then in a moment lapsed into her quiet pensive mood again. "Miss Godwin was not in love with our lake, Miss Darlington," said Graham. "She did not make me pull up, and go into ecstasies over it as you did." "Perhaps Miss Godwin has seen views like it before. You must remember I came straight from London; and the contrast was very marked." The girl looked up quickly. "I have never seen anything like it before, but it was eerie and lonely and desolate; it made me want to cry." "You must see it in the sunshine," said Sara, cheerily, "with the blue sky reflected in it and the birds singing above it. You would want to sing too!" The girl did not answer. She leant back in her chair looking tired and