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kindly and inquire cordially, that Maltravers did so constantly; at
first from a compassionate and at last from a selfish motive--for who is
not pleased to give pleasure? And Maltravers had so few in the world to
care for him, that perhaps he was flattered by the grateful respect of
this humble stranger.
When his horse stopped, the cottager's daughter opened the door and
courtesied,--it was an invitation to enter; and he threw his rein over
the paling and walked into the cottage.
Mrs. Elton, who had been seated by the open casement, rose to receive
him. But Maltravers made her sit down, and soon put her at her ease. The
woman and her daughter who occupied the cottage retired into the garden,
and Mrs. Elton, watching them withdraw, then exclaimed abruptly,--
"Oh, sir, I have so longed to see you this morning! I so long to make
bold to ask you whether, indeed, I dreamed it--or did I, when you first
took me to your house--did I see--" She stopped abruptly; and though she
strove to suppress her emotion, it was too strong for her efforts,--she
sank back on her chair, pale as death, and almost gasped for breath.
Maltravers waited in surprise for her recovery.
"I beg pardon, sir,--I was thinking of days long past; and--but I wished
to ask whether, when I lay in your hall, almost insensible, any one
besides yourself and your servants were present?---or was it"--added the
woman, with a shudder--"was it the dead?"
"I remember," said Maltravers, much struck and interested in her
question and manner, "that a lady was present."
"It is so! it is so!" cried the woman, half rising and clasping her
hands. "And she passed by this cottage a little time ago; her veil was
thrown aside as she turned that fair young face towards the cottage. Her
name, sir,--oh, what is her name? It was the same--the same face that
shone across me in that hour of pain! I did not dream! I was not mad!"
"Compose yourself; you could never, I think, have seen that lady before.
Her name is Cameron."
"Cameron--Cameron!" The woman shook her head mournfully. "No; that name
is strange to me. And her mother, sir,--she is dead?"
"No; her mother lives."
A shade came over the face of the sufferer; and she said, after a
pause,--
"My eyes deceive me then, sir; and, indeed, I feel that my head is
touched, and I wander sometimes. But the likeness was so great; yet that
young lady is even lovelier!"
"Likenesses are very deceitful and very capricious, and depend more on
fancy than reality. One person discovers a likeness between faces most
dissimilar,--a likeness invisible to others. But who does Miss Cameron
resemble?"
"One now dead, sir; dead many years ago. But it is a long story, and one
that lies heavy on my conscience. Some day or other, if you will give me
leave, sir, I will unburden myself to you."
"If I can assist you in anyway, command me. Meanwhile, have you no
friends, no relations, no children, whom you would wish to see?"
"Children!--no, sir; I never had but one child of _my own_ (she laid an
emphasis on the last words), and that died in a foreign land."
"And no other relatives?"
"None, sir. My history is very short and simple. I was well brought
up,--an only child. My father was a small farmer; he died when I was
sixteen, and I went into service with a kind old lady and her daughter,
who treated me more as a companion than a servant. I was a vain, giddy
girl, then, sir. A young man, the son of a neighbouring farmer, courted
me, and I was much attached to him; but neither of us had money, and his
parents would not give their consent to our marrying. I was silly enough
to think that, if William loved me, he should have braved all; and his
prudence mortified me, so I married another whom I did not love. I was
rightly punished, for he ill-used me and took to drinking; I returned to
my old service to escape from him--for I was with child, and my life was
in danger from his violence. He died suddenly, and in debt. And then,
afterwards, a gentleman--a rich gentleman--to whom I rendered a service
(do not misunderstand me, sir, if I say the service was one of which I
repent), gave me money, and made me rich enough to marry my first lover;
and William and I went to America. We lived many years in New York upon
our little fortune comfortably; and I was a long while happy, for I had
always loved William dearly. My first affliction was the death of my
child by my first husband; but I was soon roused from my grief. William
schemed and speculated, as everybody does in America, and so we lost
all; and William was weakly and could not work. At length he got the
place of steward on board a vessel from New York to Liverpool, and I was
taken to assist in the cabin. We wanted to come to London; I thought my
old benefactor might do something for us, though he had never answered
the letters I sent to him. But poor William fell ill on board, and died
in sight of land."
Mrs. Elton wept bitterly, but with the subdued grief of one to whom
tears have been familiar; and when she recovered, she soon brought
her humble tale to an end. She herself, incapacitated from all work by
sorrow and a breaking constitution, was left in the streets of Liverpool
without other means of subsistence than the charitable contributions of
the passengers and sailors on board the vessel. With this sum she had
gone to London, where she found her old patron had been long since dead,
and she had no claims on his family. She had, on quitting England, left
one relation settled in a town in the North; thither she now repaired,
to find her last hope wrecked; the relation also was dead and gone.
Her money was now spent, and she had begged her way along the road, or
through the lanes, she scarce knew whither, till the accident which, in
shortening her life, had raised up a friend for its close.
"And such, sir," said she in conclusion, "such has been the story of
my life, except one part of it, which, if I get stronger, I can tell
better; but you will excuse that now."
"And are you comfortable and contented, my poor friend? These people are
kind to you?"
"Oh, so kind! And every night we all pray for you, sir; you ought to be
happy, if the blessings of the poor can avail the rich."
Maltravers remounted his horse, and sought his home; and his heart was
lighter than before he entered that cottage. But at evening Cleveland
talked of Vargrave and Evelyn, and the good fortune of the one, and the
charms of the other; and the wound, so well concealed, bled afresh.
"I heard from De Montaigne the other day," said Ernest, just as they
were retiring for the night, "and his letter decides my movements. If
you will accept me, then, as a travelling companion, I will go with you
to Paris. Have you made up your mind to leave Burleigh on Saturday?"
"Yes; that gives us a day to recover from Lord Raby's ball. I am so
delighted at your offer! We need only stay a day or so in town. The
excursion will do you good,---your spirits, my dear Ernest, seem more
dejected than when you first returned to England: you live too much
alone here; you will enjoy Burleigh more on your return. And perhaps
then you will open the old house a little more to the neighbourhood, and
to your friends. They expect it: you are looked to for the county."
"I have done with politics, and sicken but for peace."
"Pick up a wife in Paris, and you will then know that peace is an
impossible possession," said the old bachelor, laughing.
BOOK V.
"FOOLS blind to truth; nor know their erring soul
How much the half is better than the whole."
--HESIOD: _Op. et Dies_, 40.
CHAPTER I.
Do as the Heavens have done; forget your evil;
With them, forgive yourself.--_The Winter's Tale_.
... The sweet'st companion that e'er man Bred his hopes out of.--_Ibid._
THE curate of Brook-Green was sitting outside his door. The vicarage
which he inhabited was a straggling, irregular, but picturesque
building,--humble enough to suit the means of the curate, yet large
enough to accommodate the vicar. It had been built in an age when the
_indigentes et pauperes_ for whom universities were founded supplied,
more than they do now, the fountains of the Christian ministry, when
pastor and flock were more on an equality.
From under a rude and arched porch, with an oaken settle on either side
for the poor visitor, the door opened at once upon the old-fashioned
parlour,--a homely but pleasant room, with one wide but low cottage
casement, beneath which stood the dark shining table that supported
the large Bible in its green baize cover; the Concordance, and the last
Sunday's sermon, in its jetty case. There by the fireplace stood the
bachelor's round elbow-chair, with a needlework cushion at the back;
a walnut-tree bureau, another table or two, half a dozen plain chairs,
constituted the rest of the furniture, saving some two or three hundred
volumes, ranged in neat shelves on the clean wainscoted walls. There
was another room, to which you ascended by two steps, communicating with
this parlour, smaller but finer, and inhabited only on festive days,
when Lady Vargrave, or some other quiet neighbour, came to drink tea
with the good curate.
An old housekeeper and her grandson--a young fellow of about two and
twenty, who tended the garden, milked the cow, and did in fact what he
was wanted to do--composed the establishment of the humble minister.
We have digressed from Mr. Aubrey himself.
The curate was seated, then, one fine summer morning, on a bench at
the left of his porch, screened from the sun by the cool boughs of a
chestnut-tree, the shadow of which half covered the little lawn that
separated the precincts of the house from those of silent Death and
everlasting Hope; above the irregular and moss-grown paling rose
the village church; and, through openings in the trees, beyond the
burial-ground, partially gleamed the white walls of Lady Vargrave's
cottage, and were seen at a distance the sails on the--
"Mighty waters, rolling evermore."
The old man was calmly enjoying the beauty of the morning, the freshness
of the air, the warmth of the dancing beam, and not least, perhaps,
his own peaceful thoughts,--the spontaneous children of a contemplative
spirit and a quiet conscience. His was the age when we most sensitively
enjoy the mere sense of existence,--when the face of Nature and a
passive conviction of the benevolence of our Great Father suffice to
create a serene and ineffable happiness, which rarely visits us till
we have done with the passions; till memories, if more alive than
heretofore, are yet mellowed in the hues of time, and Faith softens
into harmony all their asperities and harshness; till nothing within us
remains to cast a shadow over the things without; and on the verge of
life, the Angels are nearer to us than of yore. There is an old age
which has more youth of heart than youth itself!
As the old man thus sat, the little gate through which, on Sabbath
days, he was wont to pass from the humble mansion to the house of God
noiselessly opened, and Lady Vargrave appeared.
The curate rose when he perceived her; and the lady's fair features were
lighted up with a gentle pleasure, as she pressed his hand and returned
his salutation.
There was a peculiarity in Lady Vargrave's countenance which I have
rarely seen in others. Her smile, which was singularly expressive,
came less from the lip than from the eyes; it was almost as if the brow
smiled; it was as the sudden and momentary vanishing of a light but
melancholy cloud that usually rested upon the features, placid as they
were.
They sat down on the rustic bench, and the sea-breeze wantoned amongst
the quivering leaves of the chestnut-tree that overhung their seat.