All quiet on the Western Front
excitement they are immediately dimmed again, I peer through them,
the man there no longer wears his mask.
I wait some seconds--he has not collapsed--he looks around and makes
a few paces--rattling in my throat I tear my mask off too and fall
down, the air streams into me like cold water, my eyes are bursting,
the wave sweeps over me and extinguishes me.
* *
The shelling has ceased. I drag myself to the crater and tell the
others. They take off their masks. We lift up the wounded man, one
taking his splintered arm. And so we stumble off hastily.
The graveyard is a mass of wreckage. Coffins and corpses lie strewn
about. They have been killed once again; but each of them that was
flung up saved one of us.
The hedge is destroyed, the rails of the light railway are torn up
and rise stiffly in the air in great arches. Someone lies in front
of us. We stop; Kropp goes on alone with the wounded man.
The man on the ground is a recruit. His hip is covered with blood;
he is so exhausted that I feel for my water-bottle where I have rum
and tea. Kat restrains my hand and stoops over him.
"Where's it got you, comrade?"
His eyes move. He is too weak to answer.
We cut off his trousers carefully. He groans. "Gently, gently, it
is much better----"
If he has been hit in the stomach he oughtn't to drink anything.
There's no vomiting, that's a good sign. We lay the hip bare. It is
one mass of mincemeat and bone splinters. The joint has been hit.
This lad won't walk any more.
I wet his temples with a moistened finger and give him a swig. His
eyes move again. We see now that the right arm is bleeding as well.
Kat spreads out two wads of dressing as wide as possible so that they
will cover the wound. I look for something to bind loosely round it.
We have nothing more, so I slit up the wounded man's trouser leg
still farther in order to use a piece of his underpants as a bandage.
But he is wearing none. I now look at him closely. He is the
fair-headed boy of a little while ago.
In the meantime Kat has taken a bandage from a dead man's pocket and
we carefully bind the wound. I say to the youngster who looks at us
fixedly: "We're going for a stretcher now----"
Then he opens his mouth and whispers: "Stay here----"
"We'll be back again soon," says Kat. "We are only going to get a
stretcher for you."
We don't know if he understands. He whimpers like a child and plucks
at us: "Don't go away----"
Kat looks around and whispers: "Shouldn't we just take a revolver and
put an end to it?"
The youngster will hardly survive the carrying, and at the most he
will only last a few days. What he has gone through so far is
nothing to what he's in for till he dies. Now he is numb and feels
nothing. In an hour he will become one screaming bundle of
intolerable pain. Every day that he can live will be a howling
torture. And to whom does it matter whether he has them or not----
I nod. "Yes, Kat, we ought to put him out of his misery."
He stands still a moment. He has made up his mind. We look
round--but we are no longer alone. A little group is gathering, from
the shell-holes and trenches appear heads.
We get a stretcher.
Kat shakes his head. "Such a kid----" He repeats it: "Young
innocents----"
* *
Our losses are less than was to be expected--five killed and eight
wounded. It was in fact quite a short bombardment. Two of our dead
lie in the upturned graves. We had merely to throw the earth in on
them.
We go back. We trot off silently in single file one behind the
other. The wounded are taken to the dressing-station. The morning
is cloudy. The bearers make a fuss about numbers and tickets, the
wounded whimper. It begins to rain.
An hour later we reach our lorries and climb in. There is more room
now than there was.
The rain becomes heavier. We take out waterproof sheets and spread
them over our heads. The rain rattles down, and flows off at the
sides in streams. The lorries bump through the holes, and we rock
to and fro in a half-sleep. Two men in the front of the lorry have
long forked poles. They watch for telephone wires which hang
crosswise over the road so densely that they might easily pull our
heads off. The two fellows take them at the right moment on their
poles and lift them over behind us. We hear their call
"Mind--wire--," dip the knee in a half-sleep and straighten up again.
Monotonously the lorries sway, monotonously come the calls,
monotonously falls the rain. It falls on our heads and on the heads
of the dead up in the line, on the body of the little recruit with
the wound that is so much too big for his hip; it falls on
Kemmerich's grave; it falls in our hearts.
An explosion sounds somewhere. We wince, our eyes become tense, our
hands are ready to vault over the side of the lorry into the ditch by
the road.
It goes no farther--only the monotonous cry: "Mind--wire,"--our knees
bend--we are again half asleep.
CHAPTER V
Killing each separate louse is a tedious business when a man has
hundreds. The little beasts are hard and the everlasting cracking
with one's fingernails very soon becomes wearisome. So Tjaden has
rigged up the lid of a boot-polish tin with a piece of wire over the
lighted stump of a candle. The lice are simply thrown into this
little pan. Crack! and they're done for.
We sit around with our shirts on our knees, our bodies naked to the
warm air and our hands at work. Haie has a particularly fine brand
of louse: they have a red cross on their heads. He suggests that he
brought them back with him from the hospital at Thourhout, where they
attended personally on a surgeon-general. He says he means to use
the fat that slowly accumulates in the tin-lid for polishing his
boots, and roars with laughter for half an hour at his own joke.
But he hasn't much success to-day; we are too preoccupied with
another affair.
The rumour has materialized. Himmelstoss has come. He appeared
yesterday; we've already heard the well-known voice. He seems to
have overdone it with a couple of young recruits on the ploughed
field at home, and unknown to him the son of the local magistrate was
watching. That cooked his goose.
He will meet some surprises here. Tjaden has been meditating for
hours what to say to him. Haie gazes thoughtfully at his great paws
and winks at me. The thrashing was the high water mark of his life.
He tells me he often dreams of it. Kropp and Müller are amusing
themselves. From somewhere or other, probably the
pioneer-cook-house, Kropp has bagged for himself a mess-tin full of
beans. Müller squints hungrily into it but checks himself and says:
"Albert, what would you do if it were suddenly peace-time again?"
"There won't be any civil life," says Albert bluntly.
"Well, but if--" persists Müller, "what would you do?"
"Clear out of this!" growls Kropp.
"Of course. And then what?"
"Get drunk," says Albert.
"Don't talk rot, I mean seriously----"
"So do I," says Kropp, "what else should a man do?"
Kat becomes interested. He levies tribute on Kropp's tin of beans,
swallows some, then considers for a while and says: "You might get
drunk first, of course, but then you'd take the next train for home
and mother. Peace-time, man, Albert----"
He fumbles in his oil-cloth pocket-book for a photograph and suddenly
shows it all round. "My old people!" Then he puts it back and
swears: "Damned lousy war----"
"It's all very well for you to talk," I tell him. "You've a wife and
children."
"True," he nods, "and I have to see to it that they've something to
eat."
We laugh. "They won't lack for that, Kat, you'd scrounge it from
somewhere."
Müller is insatiable and gives himself no peace. He wakes Haie
Westhus out of his dream. "Haie, what would you do if it was peace
time?"
"Give you a kick in the backside for the way you talk," I say. "How
does it come about exactly?"
"How does the cow-shit come on the roof?" retorts Müller laconically,
and turns to Haie Westhus again.
It is too much for Haie. He shakes his freckled head:
"You mean when the war's over?"
"Exactly. You've said it."
"Well, there'd be women of course, eh?"--Haie licks his lips.
"Sure."
"By Jove yes," says Haie, his face melting, "then I'd grab some good
buxom dame, some real kitchen wench with plenty to get hold of, you
know, and jump straight into bed. Just you think, boys, a real
feather-bed with a spring mattress; I wouldn't put trousers on again
for a week."
Everyone is silent. The picture is too good. Our flesh creeps. At
last Müller pulls himself together and says:
"And then what?"
A pause. Then Haie explains rather awkwardly: "If I were a non-com.
I'd stay with the Prussians and serve out my time."
"Haie, you've got a screw loose, surely!" I say.
"Have you ever dug peat?" he retorts good-naturedly. "You try it."
Then he pulls a spoon out of the top of his boot and reaches over
into Kropp's mess-tin.
"It can't be worse than digging trenches," I venture.
Haie chews and grins: "It lasts longer though. And there's no
getting out of it either."
"But, man, surely it's better at home."
"Some ways," says he, and with open mouth sinks into a day-dream.
You can see what he is thinking. There is the mean little hut on the
moors, the hard work on the heath from morning till night in the
heat, the miserable pay, the dirty labourer's clothes.
"In the army in peace time you've nothing to trouble about," he goes
on, "your food's found every day, or else you kick up a row; you've a
bed, every week clean under-wear like a perfect gent, you do your
non-com.'s duty, you have a good suit of clothes; in the evening
you're a free man and go off to the pub."
Haie is extraordinarily set on his idea. He's in love with it.
"And when your twelve years are up you get your pension and become a
village bobby, and you can walk about the whole day."
He's already sweating on it. "And just you think how you'd be
treated. Here a dram, there a pint. Everybody wants to be well in
with a bobby."
"You'll never be a non-com. though, Haie," interrupts Kat.
Haie looks at him sadly and is silent. His thoughts still linger
over the clear evenings in autumn, the Sundays in the heather, the
village bells, the afternoons and evenings with the servant girls,
the fried bacon and barley, the care-free evening hours in the
ale-house----
He can't part with all these dreams so abruptly; he merely growls:
"What silly questions you do ask."
He pulls his shirt over his head and buttons up his tunic.
"What would you do, Tjaden?" asks Kropp.
Tjaden thinks only of one thing. "See to it that Himmelstoss doesn't
get past me."
Apparently he would like most to have him in a cage and sail into him
with a club every morning. To Kropp he says warmly: "If I were in
your place I'd see to it that I became a lieutenant. Then you could
grind him till the water in his backside boils."
"And you, Detering?" asks Müller like an inquisitor. He's a born
schoolmaster with all his questions.
Detering is sparing with his words. But on this subject he speaks.
He looks at the sky and says only the one sentence: "I would go
straight on with the harvesting."
Then he gets up and walks off.
He is worried. His wife has to look after the farm. They've already
taken away two of his horses. Every day he reads the papers that
come, to see whether it is raining in his little corner of Oldenburg.
They haven't brought the hay in yet.
At this moment Himmelstoss appears. He comes straight up to our
group. Tjaden's face turns red. He stretches his length on the
grass and shuts his eyes in embarrassment.