Anne's House of Dreams
dog has been such a comfort to me, Anne. He got so feeble in the fall
that I was afraid he couldn’t live long--but I hoped I could nurse him
through the winter. He seemed pretty well this morning. He was lying
on the rug before the fire; then, all at once, he got up and crept over
to me; he put his head on my lap and gave me one loving look out of his
big, soft, dog eyes--and then he just shivered and died. I shall miss
him so.”
“Let me give you another dog, Leslie,” said Anne. “I’m getting a
lovely Gordon setter for a Christmas present for Gilbert. Let me give
you one too.”
Leslie shook her head.
“Not just now, thank you, Anne. I don’t feel like having another dog
yet. I don’t seem to have any affection left for another. Perhaps--in
time--I’ll let you give me one. I really need one as a kind of
protection. But there was something almost human about Carlo--it
wouldn’t be DECENT to fill his place too hurriedly, dear old fellow.”
Anne went to Avonlea a week before Christmas and stayed until after the
holidays. Gilbert came up for her, and there was a glad New Year
celebration at Green Gables, when Barrys and Blythes and Wrights
assembled to devour a dinner which had cost Mrs. Rachel and Marilla
much careful thought and preparation. When they went back to Four
Winds the little house was almost drifted over, for the third storm of
a winter that was to prove phenomenally stormy had whirled up the
harbor and heaped huge snow mountains about everything it encountered.
But Captain Jim had shovelled out doors and paths, and Miss Cornelia
had come down and kindled the hearth-fire.
“It’s good to see you back, Anne, dearie! But did you ever see such
drifts? You can’t see the Moore place at all unless you go upstairs.
Leslie’ll be so glad you’re back. She’s almost buried alive over
there. Fortunately Dick can shovel snow, and thinks it’s great fun.
Susan sent me word to tell you she would be on hand tomorrow. Where
are you off to now, Captain?”
“I reckon I’ll plough up to the Glen and sit a bit with old Martin
Strong. He’s not far from his end and he’s lonesome. He hasn’t many
friends--been too busy all his life to make any. He’s made heaps of
money, though.”
“Well, he thought that since he couldn’t serve God and Mammon he’d
better stick to Mammon,” said Miss Cornelia crisply. “So he shouldn’t
complain if he doesn’t find Mammon very good company now.”
Captain Jim went out, but remembered something in the yard and turned
back for a moment.
“I’d a letter from Mr. Ford, Mistress Blythe, and he says the life-book
is accepted and is going to be published next fall. I felt fair
uplifted when I got the news. To think that I’m to see it in print at
last.”
“That man is clean crazy on the subject of his life-book,” said Miss
Cornelia compassionately. “For my part, I think there’s far too many
books in the world now.”
CHAPTER 29
GILBERT AND ANNE DISAGREE
Gilbert laid down the ponderous medical tome over which he had been
poring until the increasing dusk of the March evening made him desist.
He leaned back in his chair and gazed meditatively out of the window.
It was early spring--probably the ugliest time of the year. Not even
the sunset could redeem the dead, sodden landscape and rotten black
harbor ice upon which he looked. No sign of life was visible, save a
big black crow winging his solitary way across a leaden field. Gilbert
speculated idly concerning that crow. Was he a family crow, with a
black but comely crow wife awaiting him in the woods beyond the Glen?
Or was he a glossy young buck of a crow on courting thoughts intent?
Or was he a cynical bachelor crow, believing that he travels the
fastest who travels alone? Whatever he was, he soon disappeared in
congenial gloom and Gilbert turned to the cheerier view indoors.
The firelight flickered from point to point, gleaming on the white and
green coats of Gog and Magog, on the sleek, brown head of the beautiful
setter basking on the rug, on the picture frames on the walls, on the
vaseful of daffodils from the window garden, on Anne herself, sitting
by her little table, with her sewing beside her and her hands clasped
over her knee while she traced out pictures in the fire--Castles in
Spain whose airy turrets pierced moonlit cloud and sunset bar--ships
sailing from the Haven of Good Hopes straight to Four Winds Harbor with
precious burthen. For Anne was again a dreamer of dreams, albeit a
grim shape of fear went with her night and day to shadow and darken her
visions.
Gilbert was accustomed to refer to himself as “an old married man.”
But he still looked upon Anne with the incredulous eyes of a lover. He
couldn’t wholly believe yet that she was really his. It MIGHT be only
a dream after all, part and parcel of this magic house of dreams. His
soul still went on tip-toe before her, lest the charm be shattered and
the dream dispelled.
“Anne,” he said slowly, “lend me your ears. I want to talk with you
about something.”
Anne looked across at him through the fire-lit gloom.
“What is it?” she asked gaily. “You look fearfully solemn, Gilbert. I
really haven’t done anything naughty today. Ask Susan.”
“It’s not of you--or ourselves--I want to talk. It’s about Dick Moore.”
“Dick Moore?” echoed Anne, sitting up alertly. “Why, what in the world
have you to say about Dick Moore?”
“I’ve been thinking a great deal about him lately. Do you remember
that time last summer I treated him for those carbuncles on his neck?”
“Yes--yes.”
“I took the opportunity to examine the scars on his head thoroughly.
I’ve always thought Dick was a very interesting case from a medical
point of view. Lately I’ve been studying the history of trephining and
the cases where it has been employed. Anne, I have come to the
conclusion that if Dick Moore were taken to a good hospital and the
operation of trephining performed on several places in his skull, his
memory and faculties might be restored.”
“Gilbert!” Anne’s voice was full of protest. “Surely you don’t mean
it!”
“I do, indeed. And I have decided that it is my duty to broach the
subject to Leslie.”
“Gilbert Blythe, you shall NOT do any such thing,” cried Anne
vehemently. “Oh, Gilbert, you won’t--you won’t. You couldn’t be so
cruel. Promise me you won’t.”
“Why, Anne-girl, I didn’t suppose you would take it like this. Be
reasonable--”
“I won’t be reasonable--I can’t be reasonable--I AM reasonable. It is
you who are unreasonable. Gilbert, have you ever once thought what it
would mean for Leslie if Dick Moore were to be restored to his right
senses? Just stop and think! She’s unhappy enough now; but life as
Dick’s nurse and attendant is a thousand times easier for her than life
as Dick’s wife. I know--I KNOW! It’s unthinkable. Don’t you meddle
with the matter. Leave well enough alone.”
“I HAVE thought over that aspect of the case thoroughly, Anne. But I
believe that a doctor is bound to set the sanctity of a patient’s mind
and body above all other considerations, no matter what the
consequences may be. I believe it his duty to endeavor to restore
health and sanity, if there is any hope whatever of it.”
“But Dick isn’t your patient in that respect,” cried Anne, taking
another tack. “If Leslie had asked you if anything could be done for
him, THEN it might be your duty to tell her what you really thought.
But you’ve no right to meddle.”
“I don’t call it meddling. Uncle Dave told Leslie twelve years ago
that nothing could be done for Dick. She believes that, of course.”
“And why did Uncle Dave tell her that, if it wasn’t true?” cried Anne,
triumphantly. “Doesn’t he know as much about it as you?”
“I think not--though it may sound conceited and presumptuous to say it.
And you know as well as I that he is rather prejudiced against what he
calls ‘these new-fangled notions of cutting and carving.’ He’s even
opposed to operating for appendicitis.”
“He’s right,” exclaimed Anne, with a complete change of front. “I
believe myself that you modern doctors are entirely too fond of making
experiments with human flesh and blood.”
“Rhoda Allonby would not be a living woman today if I had been afraid
of making a certain experiment,” argued Gilbert. “I took the risk--and
saved her life.”
“I’m sick and tired of hearing about Rhoda Allonby,” cried Anne--most
unjustly, for Gilbert had never mentioned Mrs. Allonby’s name since the
day he had told Anne of his success in regard to her. And he could not
be blamed for other people’s discussion of it.
Gilbert felt rather hurt.
“I had not expected you to look at the matter as you do, Anne,” he said
a little stiffly, getting up and moving towards the office door. It
was their first approach to a quarrel.
But Anne flew after him and dragged him back.
“Now, Gilbert, you are not ‘going off mad.’ Sit down here and I’ll
apologise bee-YEW-ti-fully, I shouldn’t have said that. But--oh, if
you knew--”
Anne checked herself just in time. She had been on the very verge of
betraying Leslie’s secret.
“Knew what a woman feels about it,” she concluded lamely.
“I think I do know. I’ve looked at the matter from every point of
view--and I’ve been driven to the conclusion that it is my duty to tell
Leslie that I believe it is possible that Dick can be restored to
himself; there my responsibility ends. It will be for her to decide
what she will do.”
“I don’t think you’ve any right to put such a responsibility on her.
She has enough to bear. She is poor--how could she afford such an
operation?”
“That is for her to decide,” persisted Gilbert stubbornly.
“You say you think that Dick can be cured. But are you SURE of it?”
“Certainly not. Nobody could be sure of such a thing. There may have
been lesions of the brain itself, the effect of which can never be
removed. But if, as I believe, his loss of memory and other faculties
is due merely to the pressure on the brain centers of certain depressed
areas of bone, then he can be cured.”
“But it’s only a possibility!” insisted Anne. “Now, suppose you tell
Leslie and she decides to have the operation. It will cost a great
deal. She will have to borrow the money, or sell her little property.
And suppose the operation is a failure and Dick remains the same.
“How will she be able to pay back the money she borrows, or make a
living for herself and that big helpless creature if she sells the
farm?”
“Oh, I know--I know. But it is my duty to tell her. I can’t get away
from that conviction.”
“Oh, I know the Blythe stubbornness,” groaned Anne. “But don’t do this
solely on your own responsibility. Consult Doctor Dave.”
“I HAVE done so,” said Gilbert reluctantly.
“And what did he say?”
“In brief--as you say--leave well enough alone. Apart from his
prejudice against new-fangled surgery, I’m afraid he looks at the case
from your point of view--don’t do it, for Leslie’s sake.”
“There now,” cried Anne triumphantly. “I do think, Gilbert, that you
ought to abide by the judgment of a man nearly eighty, who has seen a
great deal and saved scores of lives himself--surely his opinion ought
to weigh more than a mere boy’s.”
“Thank you.”
“Don’t laugh. It’s too serious.”
“That’s just my point. It IS serious. Here is a man who is a helpless
burden. He may be restored to reason and usefulness--”
“He was so very useful before,” interjected Anne witheringly.
“He may be given a chance to make good and redeem the past. His wife
doesn’t know this. I do. It is therefore my duty to tell her that
there is such a possibility. That, boiled down, is my decision.”
“Don’t say ‘decision’ yet, Gilbert. Consult somebody else. Ask
Captain Jim what he thinks about it.”