Bleak House
My little maid’s face was so eager and her quiet hands were folded so
closely in one another as she stood looking at me that I had no great
difficulty in reading her thoughts. “Well, Charley,” said I, “it
appears to me that you and I can do no better than go round to
Jenny’s and see what’s the matter.”
The alacrity with which Charley brought my bonnet and veil, and
having dressed me, quaintly pinned herself into her warm shawl and
made herself look like a little old woman, sufficiently expressed her
readiness. So Charley and I, without saying anything to any one, went
out.
It was a cold, wild night, and the trees shuddered in the wind. The
rain had been thick and heavy all day, and with little intermission
for many days. None was falling just then, however. The sky had
partly cleared, but was very gloomy—even above us, where a few stars
were shining. In the north and north-west, where the sun had set
three hours before, there was a pale dead light both beautiful and
awful; and into it long sullen lines of cloud waved up like a sea
stricken immovable as it was heaving. Towards London a lurid glare
overhung the whole dark waste, and the contrast between these two
lights, and the fancy which the redder light engendered of an
unearthly fire, gleaming on all the unseen buildings of the city and
on all the faces of its many thousands of wondering inhabitants, was
as solemn as might be.
I had no thought that night—none, I am quite sure—of what was soon
to happen to me. But I have always remembered since that when we had
stopped at the garden-gate to look up at the sky, and when we went
upon our way, I had for a moment an undefinable impression of myself
as being something different from what I then was. I know it was then
and there that I had it. I have ever since connected the feeling with
that spot and time and with everything associated with that spot and
time, to the distant voices in the town, the barking of a dog, and
the sound of wheels coming down the miry hill.
It was Saturday night, and most of the people belonging to the place
where we were going were drinking elsewhere. We found it quieter than
I had previously seen it, though quite as miserable. The kilns were
burning, and a stifling vapour set towards us with a pale-blue glare.
We came to the cottage, where there was a feeble candle in the
patched window. We tapped at the door and went in. The mother of the
little child who had died was sitting in a chair on one side of the
poor fire by the bed; and opposite to her, a wretched boy, supported
by the chimney-piece, was cowering on the floor. He held under his
arm, like a little bundle, a fragment of a fur cap; and as he tried
to warm himself, he shook until the crazy door and window shook. The
place was closer than before and had an unhealthy and a very peculiar
smell.
I had not lifted my veil when I first spoke to the woman, which was
at the moment of our going in. The boy staggered up instantly and
stared at me with a remarkable expression of surprise and terror.
His action was so quick and my being the cause of it was so evident
that I stood still instead of advancing nearer.
“I won’t go no more to the berryin ground,” muttered the boy; “I
ain’t a-going there, so I tell you!”
I lifted my veil and spoke to the woman. She said to me in a low
voice, “Don’t mind him, ma’am. He’ll soon come back to his head,” and
said to him, “Jo, Jo, what’s the matter?”
“I know wot she’s come for!” cried the boy.
“Who?”
“The lady there. She’s come to get me to go along with her to the
berryin ground. I won’t go to the berryin ground. I don’t like the
name on it. She might go a-berryin ME.” His shivering came on again,
and as he leaned against the wall, he shook the hovel.
“He has been talking off and on about such like all day, ma’am,” said
Jenny softly. “Why, how you stare! This is MY lady, Jo.”
“Is it?” returned the boy doubtfully, and surveying me with his arm
held out above his burning eyes. “She looks to me the t’other one. It
ain’t the bonnet, nor yet it ain’t the gownd, but she looks to me the
t’other one.”
My little Charley, with her premature experience of illness and
trouble, had pulled off her bonnet and shawl and now went quietly up
to him with a chair and sat him down in it like an old sick nurse.
Except that no such attendant could have shown him Charley’s youthful
face, which seemed to engage his confidence.
“I say!” said the boy. “YOU tell me. Ain’t the lady the t’other
lady?”
Charley shook her head as she methodically drew his rags about him
and made him as warm as she could.
“Oh!” the boy muttered. “Then I s’pose she ain’t.”
“I came to see if I could do you any good,” said I. “What is the
matter with you?”
“I’m a-being froze,” returned the boy hoarsely, with his haggard gaze
wandering about me, “and then burnt up, and then froze, and then
burnt up, ever so many times in a hour. And my head’s all sleepy, and
all a-going mad-like—and I’m so dry—and my bones isn’t half so much
bones as pain.”
“When did he come here?” I asked the woman.
“This morning, ma’am, I found him at the corner of the town. I had
known him up in London yonder. Hadn’t I, Jo?”
“Tom-all-Alone’s,” the boy replied.
Whenever he fixed his attention or his eyes, it was only for a very
little while. He soon began to droop his head again, and roll it
heavily, and speak as if he were half awake.
“When did he come from London?” I asked.
“I come from London yes’day,” said the boy himself, now flushed and
hot. “I’m a-going somewheres.”
“Where is he going?” I asked.
“Somewheres,” repeated the boy in a louder tone. “I have been moved
on, and moved on, more nor ever I was afore, since the t’other one
give me the sov’ring. Mrs. Snagsby, she’s always a-watching, and
a-driving of me—what have I done to her?—and they’re all a-watching
and a-driving of me. Every one of ’em’s doing of it, from the time
when I don’t get up, to the time when I don’t go to bed. And I’m
a-going somewheres. That’s where I’m a-going. She told me, down in
Tom-all-Alone’s, as she came from Stolbuns, and so I took the
Stolbuns Road. It’s as good as another.”
He always concluded by addressing Charley.
“What is to be done with him?” said I, taking the woman aside. “He
could not travel in this state even if he had a purpose and knew
where he was going!”
“I know no more, ma’am, than the dead,” she replied, glancing
compassionately at him. “Perhaps the dead know better, if they could
only tell us. I’ve kept him here all day for pity’s sake, and I’ve
given him broth and physic, and Liz has gone to try if any one will
take him in (here’s my pretty in the bed—her child, but I call it
mine); but I can’t keep him long, for if my husband was to come home
and find him here, he’d be rough in putting him out and might do him
a hurt. Hark! Here comes Liz back!”
The other woman came hurriedly in as she spoke, and the boy got up
with a half-obscured sense that he was expected to be going. When the
little child awoke, and when and how Charley got at it, took it out
of bed, and began to walk about hushing it, I don’t know. There she
was, doing all this in a quiet motherly manner as if she were living
in Mrs. Blinder’s attic with Tom and Emma again.
The friend had been here and there, and had been played about from
hand to hand, and had come back as she went. At first it was too
early for the boy to be received into the proper refuge, and at last
it was too late. One official sent her to another, and the other sent
her back again to the first, and so backward and forward, until it
appeared to me as if both must have been appointed for their skill in
evading their duties instead of performing them. And now, after all,
she said, breathing quickly, for she had been running and was
frightened too, “Jenny, your master’s on the road home, and mine’s
not far behind, and the Lord help the boy, for we can do no more for
him!” They put a few halfpence together and hurried them into his
hand, and so, in an oblivious, half-thankful, half-insensible way, he
shuffled out of the house.
“Give me the child, my dear,” said its mother to Charley, “and thank
you kindly too! Jenny, woman dear, good night! Young lady, if my
master don’t fall out with me, I’ll look down by the kiln by and by,
where the boy will be most like, and again in the morning!” She
hurried off, and presently we passed her hushing and singing to her
child at her own door and looking anxiously along the road for her
drunken husband.
I was afraid of staying then to speak to either woman, lest I should
bring her into trouble. But I said to Charley that we must not leave
the boy to die. Charley, who knew what to do much better than I did,
and whose quickness equalled her presence of mind, glided on before
me, and presently we came up with Jo, just short of the brick-kiln.
I think he must have begun his journey with some small bundle under
his arm and must have had it stolen or lost it. For he still carried
his wretched fragment of fur cap like a bundle, though he went
bare-headed through the rain, which now fell fast. He stopped when we
called to him and again showed a dread of me when I came up, standing
with his lustrous eyes fixed upon me, and even arrested in his
shivering fit.
I asked him to come with us, and we would take care that he had some
shelter for the night.
“I don’t want no shelter,” he said; “I can lay amongst the warm
bricks.”
“But don’t you know that people die there?” replied Charley.
“They dies everywheres,” said the boy. “They dies in their
lodgings—she knows where; I showed her—and they dies down in
Tom-all-Alone’s in heaps. They dies more than they lives, according
to what I see.” Then he hoarsely whispered Charley, “If she ain’t the
t’other one, she ain’t the forrenner. Is there THREE of ’em then?”
Charley looked at me a little frightened. I felt half frightened at
myself when the boy glared on me so.
But he turned and followed when I beckoned to him, and finding that
he acknowledged that influence in me, I led the way straight home. It
was not far, only at the summit of the hill. We passed but one man. I
doubted if we should have got home without assistance, the boy’s
steps were so uncertain and tremulous. He made no complaint, however,
and was strangely unconcerned about himself, if I may say so strange
a thing.
Leaving him in the hall for a moment, shrunk into the corner of the
window-seat and staring with an indifference that scarcely could be
called wonder at the comfort and brightness about him, I went into
the drawing-room to speak to my guardian. There I found Mr. Skimpole,
who had come down by the coach, as he frequently did without notice,
and never bringing any clothes with him, but always borrowing
everything he wanted.
They came out with me directly to look at the boy. The servants had
gathered in the hall too, and he shivered in the window-seat with
Charley standing by him, like some wounded animal that had been found
in a ditch.
“This is a sorrowful case,” said my guardian after asking him a
question or two and touching him and examining his eyes. “What do you
say, Harold?”
“You had better turn him out,” said Mr. Skimpole.
“What do you mean?” inquired my guardian, almost sternly.
“My dear Jarndyce,” said Mr. Skimpole, “you know what I am: I am a
child. Be cross to me if I deserve it. But I have a constitutional
objection to this sort of thing. I always had, when I was a medical
man. He’s not safe, you know. There’s a very bad sort of fever about
him.”
Mr. Skimpole had retreated from the hall to the drawing-room again
and said this in his airy way, seated on the music-stool as we stood
by.
“You’ll say it’s childish,” observed Mr. Skimpole, looking gaily at