Emily of New Moon
half-mile in buttoned boots. Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. No Murray
must be seen barefooted away from home--and on they went. But the
minute Emily was outside the New Moon gate she deliberately sat down,
took them off, stowed them in a hole in the dyke, and pranced away
barefooted.
She did her errand and returned with an untroubled conscience. How
beautiful the world was--how softly blue was the great, round Blair
Water--how glorious that miracle of buttercups in the wet field below
Lofty John’s bush! At sight of it Emily stood stock still and composed
a verse of poetry.
“Buttercup, flower of the yellow dye,
I see thy cheerful face
Greeting and nodding everywhere
Careless of time and place.
“In boggy field or public road
Or cultured garden’s pale
You sport your petals satin-soft,
And down within the vale.”
So far, so good. But Emily wanted another verse to round the poem off
properly and the divine afflatus seemed gone. She walked dreamily home,
and by the time she reached New Moon she had got her verse and was
reciting it to herself with an agreeable sense of completion.
“You cast your loveliness around
Where’er you chance to be,
And you shall always, buttercup,
Be a flower dear to me.”
Emily felt very proud. This was her third poem and undoubtedly her
best. Nobody could say _it_ was very blank. She must hurry up to
the garret and write it on a letter-bill. But Aunt Elizabeth was
confronting her on the steps.
“Emily, where are your boots and stockings?”
Emily came back from cloudland with a disagreeable jolt. She had
forgotten all about boots and stockings.
“In the hole by the gate,” she said flatly.
“You went to the store barefooted?”
“Yes.”
“After I had told you not to?”
This seemed to Emily a superfluous question and she did not answer it.
But Aunt Elizabeth’s turn had come.
CHAPTER XI
ILSE
Emily was locked in the spare-room and told that she must stay there
until bedtime. She had pleaded against such a punishment in vain. She
had tried to give the Murray look but it seemed that--in her case at
any rate--it did not come at will.
“Oh, don’t shut me up alone there, Aunt Elizabeth,” she implored. “I
know I was naughty--but don’t put me in the spare-room.”
Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. She knew that it was a cruel thing to
shut an over-sensitive child like Emily in that gloomy room. But she
thought she was doing her duty. She did not realize and would not have
for a moment believed that she was really wreaking her own smothered
resentment with Emily for her defeat and fright on the day of the
threatened hair-cutting. Aunt Elizabeth believed she had been stampeded
on that occasion by a chance family resemblance coming out under
stress, and she was ashamed of it. The Murray pride had smarted under
that humbling, and the smart ceased to annoy her only when she turned
the key of the spare-room on the white-faced culprit.
Emily, looking very small and lost and lonely, her eyes full of such
fear as should have no place in a child’s eyes, shrank close against
the door of the spare-room. It was better that way. She could not
imagine things behind her then. And the room was so big and dim that
a dreadful number of things could be imagined in it. Its bigness
and dimness filled her with a terror against which she could not
strive. Ever since she could remember she had had a horror of being
shut up alone in semi-darkness. She was not frightened of twilight
out-of-doors, but this shadowy, walled gloom made of the spare-room a
place of dread.
The window was hung with heavy, dark-green material, reinforced by
drawn slat-blinds. The big canopied bed, jutting out from the wall
into the middle of the floor, was high and rigid and curtained also
with dark draperies. _Anything_ might jump at her out of such a bed.
What if some great black hand should suddenly reach out of it--reach
right across the floor--and pluck at her? The walls, like those of the
parlour, were adorned with pictures of departed relatives. There _was_
such a large connection of dead Murrays. The glasses of their frames
gave out weird reflections of the spectral threads of light struggling
through the slat blinds. Worst of all, right across the room from her,
high up on the top of the black wardrobe, was a huge, stuffed white
Arctic owl, staring at her with uncanny eyes. Emily shrieked aloud
when she saw it, and then cowered down in her corner aghast at the
sound she had made in the great, silent, echoing room. She wished that
something _would_ jump out of the bed and put an end to her.
“I wonder what Aunt Elizabeth would feel like if I was found here
_dead_,” she thought, vindictively.
In spite of her fright she began to dramatize it and felt Aunt
Elizabeth’s remorse so keenly that she decided only to be unconscious
and come back to life when everybody was sufficiently scared and
penitent. But people _had_ died in this room--dozens of them. According
to Cousin Jimmy it was a New Moon tradition that when any member of the
family was near death he or she was promptly removed to the spare-room,
to die amid surroundings of proper grandeur. Emily could _see_ them
dying, in that terrible bed. She felt that she was going to scream
again, but she fought the impulse down. A Starr must not be a coward.
Oh, that owl! Suppose, when she looked away from it and then looked
back she would find that it had silently hopped down from the wardrobe
and was coming towards her. Emily dared not look at it for fear that
was just what had happened. _Didn’t_ the bed curtains stir and waver!
She felt beads of cold perspiration on her forehead.
Then something did happen. A beam of sunlight struck through a small
break in one of the slats of the blind and fell directly athwart the
picture of Grandfather Murray hanging over the mantel-piece. It was a
crayon “enlargement” copied from the old daguerreotype in the parlour
below. In that gleam of light his face seemed veritably to leap out of
the gloom at Emily with its grim frown strangely exaggerated. Emily’s
nerve gave way completely. In an ungovernable spasm of panic she rushed
madly across the room to the window, dashed the curtains aside, and
caught up the slat blind. A blessed flood of sunshine burst in. Outside
was a wholesome, friendly, human world. And, of all wonders, there,
leaning right against the window-sill was a ladder! For a moment Emily
almost believed that a miracle had been worked for her escape.
Cousin Jimmy had tripped that morning over the ladder, lying lost among
the burdocks under the balm-of-gileads behind the dairy. It was very
rotten and he decided it was time it was disposed of. He had shouldered
it up against the house so that he would be sure to see it on his
return from the hayfield.
In less time than it takes to write of it Emily had got the window up,
climbed out on the sill, and backed down the ladder. She was too intent
on escaping from that horrible room to be conscious of the shakiness of
the rotten rungs. When she reached the ground she bolted through the
balm-of-gileads and over the fence into Lofty John’s bush, nor did she
stop running till she reached the path by the brook.
Then she paused for breath, exultant. She was full of a fearful joy
with an elfin delight running through it. Sweet was the wind of freedom
that was blowing over the ferns. She had escaped from the spare-room
and its ghosts--she had got the better of mean old Aunt Elizabeth.
“I feel as if I was a little bird that had just got out of a cage,” she
told herself; and then she danced with joy of it all along her fairy
path to the very end, where she found Ilse Burnley huddled up on the
top of a fence panel, her pale-gold head making a spot of brilliance
against the dark young firs that crowded around her. Emily had not seen
her since that first day of school and again she thought she had never
seen or pretended anybody just like Ilse.
“Well, Emily of New Moon,” said Ilse, “where are you running to?”
“I’m running away,” said Emily frankly. “I was bad--at least, I was a
little bad--and Aunt Elizabeth locked me in the spare-room. I hadn’t
been bad enough for _that_--it wasn’t fair--so I got out of the window
and down the ladder.”
“You little cuss! I didn’t think you’d gimp enough for that,” said Ilse.
Emily gasped. It seemed very dreadful to be called a little cuss. But
Ilse had said it quite admiringly.
“I don’t think it was gimp,” said Emily, too honest to take a
compliment she didn’t deserve. “I was too scared to stay in that room.”
“Well, where are you going now?” asked Ilse. “You’ll have to go
somewhere--you can’t stay outdoors. There’s a thunderstorm coming up.”
So there was. Emily did not like thunderstorms. And her conscience
smote her.
“Oh,” she said, “do you suppose God is bringing up that storm to punish
me because I’ve run away?”
“No,” said Ilse scornfully. “If there is any God he wouldn’t make such
a fuss over nothing.”
“Oh, Ilse, don’t you believe there is a God?”
“I don’t know. Father says there isn’t. But in that case how did things
happen? Some days I believe there’s a God and some days I don’t. You’d
better come home with me. There’s nobody there. I was so dod-gastedly
lonesome I took to the bush.”
Ilse sprang down and held out her sunburned paw to Emily. Emily
took it and they ran together over Lofty John’s pasture to the old
Burnley house which looked like a huge grey cat basking in the warm
late sunshine, that had not yet been swallowed up by the menacing
thunderheads. Inside, it was full of furniture that must have been
quite splendid once; but the disorder was dreadful and the dust lay
thickly over everything. Nothing was in the right place apparently, and
Aunt Laura would certainly have fainted with horror if she had seen
the kitchen. But it was a good place to play. You didn’t have to be
careful not to mess things up. Ilse and Emily had a glorious game of
hide and seek all over the house until the thunder got so heavy and
the lightning so bright that Emily felt she must huddle on the sofa and
nurse her courage.
“Aren’t you ever afraid of thunder?” she asked Ilse.
“No, I ain’t afraid of anything except the devil,” said Ilse.
“I thought you didn’t believe in the devil either--Rhoda said you
didn’t.”
“Oh, there’s a devil all right, Father says. It’s only God he doesn’t
believe in. And if there _is_ a devil and no God to keep him in order,
is it any wonder I’m scared of him? Look here, Emily Byrd Starr, I
like you--heaps. I’ve always liked you. I knew you’d soon be good and
sick of that little, white-livered, lying sneak of a Rhoda Stuart. _I_
never tell lies. Father told me once he’d kill me if he ever caught me
telling a lie. I want you for _my_ chum. I’d go to school regular if I
could sit with you.”
“All right,” said Emily off-handedly. No more sentimental Rhodian vows
of eternal devotion for her. _That_ phase was over.
“And you’ll tell me things--nobody ever tells me things. And let _me_
tell _you_ things--I haven’t anybody to tell things to,” said Ilse.
“And you won’t be ashamed of me because my clothes are always queer and
because I don’t believe in God?”
“No. But if you knew Father’s God you’d believe in _Him_.”
“I wouldn’t. Besides, there’s only one God if there is any at all.”
“I don’t know,” said Emily perplexedly. “No, it can’t be like that.
Ellen Greene’s God isn’t a bit like Father’s, and neither is Aunt
Elizabeth’s. I don’t think I’d _like_ Aunt Elizabeth’s, but He is a
_dignified_ God at least, and Ellen’s isn’t. And I’m sure Aunt Laura’s
is another one still--nice and kind but not wonderful like Father’s.”
“Well never mind--I don’t like talking about God,” said Ilse
uncomfortably.