Marigold A story
“Yes; you have only to tell the High Priest when your birthday is, and
you will receive the loveliest present.”
He did not answer, and Marigold was pleased, because he was looking at
her in a troubled, puzzled way that was a great advance upon the weeks
of constant coldness and dislike. So she continued:
“In the Temple there is the portrait of a lady, quite a masterpiece
of art. But, by mistake, they’ve put her with the saints, and she was
nothing but a sinner. And so I’ve advised the High Priest to send her
on to you.”
And she laughed in his face--carelessly, lightly, almost
contemptuously--and went on down the steps, the High Priest escorting
her.
“There now!” said she, “you have been so kind to me all afternoon that
you must still be kinder. I cannot walk home; you must drive me to the
Palace gates--no further. I’ve enjoyed this afternoon so much, I’ll
come again.”
And Marigold’s heart being broken, her voice was full of gaiety, her
laughter sparkling.
And the High Priest drove her to the gates, and wanted badly to walk
across the park with her; but she would not let him, only she smiled
at him as they parted, and the footman and coachman prevented him doing
anything rash.
And Mr Barringcourt, left alone, stood till the carriage had left the
Temple place, and then very slowly passed on into the Temple.
And his steps turned to the Crockerby panels, the sixth and greatest
masterpiece.
He stood before it, his face a strange mixture of pain and doubt and
tenderness.
“I don’t know. No one but myself would see the least resemblance, and
yet I have always seen it from the first, even in that mad trick of
acting as a beggar girl. Seen and yet not believed, the obvious being
always the hardest thing to find. Rags! when I looked for such untold
perfection,” and suddenly he laughed, and the Temple rafters echoed it,
not at all hollowly.
“Well may St Armand laugh; I’d laugh myself if I were one whit less in
love with her. Fool that I was! And that last time--oh Heaven! that I
should so far forget myself! And blaming him! thinking her one of his
tools--a puppet with a devilish resemblance, worked up by his skill to
look like Rosalie! Truly he may be flattered. His jokes have been so
many, so excellent, with such keen point; but this would certainly have
capped them all and passed the bounds of courtesy. But anyway the High
Priest’s safe, and with the beggar girl I hardly thought he was.”
And then something seemed to strike him, and a shadow and a pallor
crossed his face.
“Safe! Who ever yet was safe on Lucifram--God or man--till the net was
passed?”
And the High Priest, driving home alone, thought on the Master.
“Decided signs of age,” said he. “Twenty years ago, he’d have settled
any woman--even Marigold. Decided signs of age.”
And Marigold, walking home alone through the park, wrung her two hands
silently together.
“I don’t want the High Priest; I want--I want _him_--Rosalie is
dead. He should forget her. Oh! I wish I’d never spoken to him so about
her, if--if she is dead. What a hardened, heartless wretch he must have
thought me!”
And suddenly she put her hands before her face, that had grown suddenly
scarlet.
“He’ll think me a bad, bad woman in every way, and I’m not--I’m
not--I’m good. But I can’t help the things I’ve done and said--I can’t
really. I--I wish I were dead. Indeed! indeed! I do. I wasn’t made to
stand alone. I was made to take hold of some one. I--I wouldn’t even
mind being the third person--the strawberry--no, the gooseberry--if I
might be allowed to speak to him like other people now and again.”
So did Marigold argue, being the last person in the world to be content
that way.
CHAPTER XXV
Early next morning the Princess went out to gather roses for a table
decoration, and Mr Barringcourt paid an unusually early and very
unexpected call. He saw her stretch up eagerly to snip a glorious
damask queen, and then, before she cut it, suddenly turn to see him
standing there. And her cheeks went the colour of the uncut rose, and
the scissors and basket slipped out of her hand, and the gathered
flowers all lay in confusion at her feet.
And both of them stood looking at each other without a word, and the
deep colour died away from Marigold’s face.
It must be admitted that Alice was watching in the distance, watching
with a triumphant heart, for it was at her telling that he had been
admitted to the rose-garden--Alice, who had an old score to pay off.
“I have come to apologise.”
Marigold clasped her hands in front--always a dangerous attitude with
her--and looked at him with a little cold surprise, bent on not
answering.
He bit his lip, as well he might; yet made another clean breast of it.
“I didn’t know who you were.”
Scorn arose and flashed out of the beautiful eyes.
“That accounts for everything, then. Your conduct under those
circumstances was quite excusable.”
“You do not understand me.”
“I--I understand you perfectly. Perhaps I--I ought to apologise too.
I--I forgot myself for--for a little while. I--I took you for some one
else. I--I----”
Everything had died away from Marigold now that she had begun to
speak--everything, except the pretty, unconscious attitude, and those
wonderful eyes, half-truthful, half-frightened, with no acting at all.
“Then,” said he gently, “let us forget it.”
But she shook her head.
“I can’t.” And her hand went up to the ribbon at her throat
unconsciously.
“I--I hurt you.”
“Oh no; but if you were a gentleman you would keep away. I--I was very
silly, but I was ill.”
“Yes. You had been so very kind to Timothy.”
Marigold’s eyes fell to the ground, and she clenched her hands
tightly as each fell suddenly to her side, for, at the mention of the
little cripple child and the accompanying tenderness of tone, the old
dangerous feeling began to rise in her, almost suffocating her. It was
one of the few times when she ceased to look beautiful, for the wave of
feelings, and the great will-power needed to at all subdue or rather
hide them, gave to every feature a strange, hard, full look not its own.
“Yes, I was kind, and you were kinder. We’ll let that pass, and other
things. You must go.”
Her voice, too, was thick and unnatural.
“Then you must forgive me.”
“No, no, I never can. There are a hundred things for which I never can
forgive you.”
“My only fault all through was that I misunderstood you.”
“Rather that you hated me.”
“I misunderstood you. You said you were a beggar girl, and I believed
you.”
“How contemptible you are! Holy Serpent! what are men coming to, to see
no shame in their own cowardice and lack of chivalry?”
“Marigold, I----”
“You will perhaps remember my title; this familiarity is the last
insult. If you will not go, I shall send for the--the footman to show
you the--the gate.”
She expected some retort, but did not get it, for he stood there, his
head bent towards the ground.
“If you will not forgive me, I must cease to ask for your forgiveness.
But you cannot prevent my feeling shame and sorrow for what I did so
unaccountably, so unexpectedly. You say you were tired with nursing
Timothy; perhaps I was tired too.”
“You weren’t,” she panted; “you got him away from me, and--and then you
were happy. You--you were jealous of me all the time.”
“Yes, for another woman’s sake. At least, I thought so. He is quite
safe with me. You were not strong enough. What would you have done with
him?”
“Why do you always torture me? Is it a pleasure to you to see me
all--all unstrung? Go away, or--or I must.”
She turned and walked unsteadily, if quickly, to the open windows. Yet
he had made no attempt to follow her, for her voice was nothing but
hard pride and shame, at being thus found too weak to fight against her
own emotions.
Inside the room she sank into a chair, trembling and shivering.
And then at last a sudden change came in her face, bringing the old
beauty.
“I’ll run after him, and say I’ve--I’ve changed my mind--that I’ve
forgiven him, if he’s forgiven me.”
And quickly she ran out across the smooth lawn, through the gates, and
into the broad park. But he was nowhere, neither near nor far, and
Marigold’s face was white with disappointment, and grey with the long
strain. So she went back to the rose-garden, and flung herself down
upon the grass amongst the bowers of roses, and cried just as when
a child, in the big grand gardens far away in Fairy Sky, when night
descended and the stars came out, and she remembered she was quite
alone, with no companion, nothing but the beauty of the world--an
orphan, with a child’s heart aching for love.
And now the same, only the child’s heart was changed into a woman’s.
Yet there was so little dross in it that it was far too soft for daily
use, though the crust of tiny diamonds might at times make it look hard.
“He’ll never come back now,” she said, “because I was so horrid to him.
I couldn’t help it. I thought it so contemptible to come with that
excuse. But oh! I don’t know, and I don’t care. I can’t tell whether
he is contemptible or not. I only know I love him.”
And when she went upstairs to change the simple morning-robe for one a
little more elaborate, she sat before the glass alone, and removed the
velvet at her neck.
“I am glad these marks are on my neck. I hope they never disappear,”
she said. “It is our little secret away from the world. They used to
burn with anger--at least, I thought it anger, but I don’t know, I
don’t understand a thing. I wish the marks had been on my hands or
arms, or somewhere that I might have kissed them.”
And she kissed the velvet that encircled them instead.
And suddenly her eyes filled with tears.
“And Timothy--he said that Timothy was safe. Patches! dear little
Patches! It was you who taught me how to be good--how to try. And now
you’ve gone, everything is black again. Who cares really whether I’m
good or not?”
And then life went on evenly again, though Marigold passed over the
rough stones bare-foot. And every day her loveliness became more
ethereal and spiritual, and no one but Alice noticed the gradual
wasting away; yet she dare not presume across the silent barrier that
had sprung up between her mistress and herself--nay, between her
mistress and every one around her.
For Marigold now went out far more than she had ever done--sickness and
charities and social duties each claiming her attention.
And now she laughed just as in the olden times, but with the world of
difference to the faithful servant’s ears; for sometimes in the night
she would hear the stifled cry of pain, the restless motion, the weary
sigh.
And one night in the darkness she crept up to her mistress’s bed.
“Princess,” she cried, “say you’re ill, and let us have a doctor.”
“Alice! what nonsense! go back to bed at once, or we’ll be having the
doctor to you.”
“You’re growing thinner every day, Princess.”
“Then it suits me,” and she laughed. “For to-night I had more
compliments paid me than even is usual with a Princess.”
And Alice went away, the hard, brilliant tone covering the childish
sweetness in her voice, that rang out so pathetically, because you were
not meant to hear it.
And each day the High Priest’s infatuation grew, and who could blame
him? Yet, since the interview with Mr Barringcourt, Marigold had held
slightly back, now smiling, now laughing and merry, now very silent,
wistful, and retiring, and he knew not in which mood he loved her best.
Yet they met little as yet except in public, and it was well.
And in public also she had met Mr Barringcourt, and almost like a
child might, tired at last of straining and pretending coldness or
indifference, she met him simply with a sweet gravity, and sometimes