Memoirs of Fanny Hill
subjects of his soft blockade, which he squeezed, grasped and played
with, till at length in pursuit of driving, so hotly urged, brought on
the height of the fit, with such overpowering pleasure, that his fair
partner became now necessary to support him, panting, fainting and
dying as he discharged; which she no sooner felt the killing sweetness
of, than unable to keep her legs, and yielding to the mighty
intoxication, she reeld, and falling forward on the couch, made it a
necessity for him, if he would preserve the warm-pleasure hold, to fall
upon her, where they perfected, in a continued conjunction of body and
ecstatic flow, their scheme of joys for that time.
As soon as he had disengaged, the charming Emily got up, and we crowded
round her with congratulations and other officious little services; for
it is to be noted, that though all modesty and reserve were banished
from the transaction of these pleasures, good manners and politeness
were inviolably observed: there was no gross ribaldry, no offensive or
rude behaviour, or ungenerous reproaches to the girls for their
compliance with the humours and desires of the men. On the contrary,
nothing was wanting to soothe, encourage, and soften the sense of their
condition to them. Men know not in general how much they destroy of
their own pleasure, when they break through the respect and tenderness
due to our sex, and even to those of it who live only by pleasing them.
And this was a maxim perfectly well understood by these polite
voluptuaries, these profound adepts in the great art and science of
pleasure, who never shewed these votaries of theirs a more tender
respect than at the time of those exercises of their complaisance, when
they unlocked their treasures of concealed beauty, and shewed out in
the pride of their native charms, ever more touching surely than when
they parade it in the artificial ones of dress and ornament.
The frolic was now come round to me, and it being my turn of
subscription to the will and pleasure of my particular elect, as well
as to that of the company, he came to me, and saluting me very
tenderly, with a flattering eagerness, put me in mind of the
compliances my presence there authorized the hopes of, and at the same
time repeated to me, “that if all this force of example had not
surmounted any repugnance I might have to concur with the humours and
desires of the company, that though the play was bespoke for my
benefit, and great as his own private disappointment might be, he would
suffer any thing, sooner than be the instrument of imposing a
disagreeable task.”
To this I answered, without the least hesitation, or mincing grimace,
“that had I not even contracted a kind of engagement to be at his
disposal without the least reserve, the example of such agreeable
companions would alone determine me, and that I was in no pain about
any thing but my appearing to so great a disadvantage after such
superior beauties.” And take notice that I thought, as I spoke. The
frankness of the answer pleased them all; my particular was
complimented on his acquisition, and, by way of indirect flattery to
me, openly envied me.
Mrs. Cole, by the way, could not have given me a greater mark of her
regard than in managing for me the choice of this young gentleman for
my master of the ceremonies: for, independent of his noble birth and
the great fortune he was heir to, his person was even uncommonly
pleasing, well shaped and tall; his face marked with the small-pox, but
no more than what added a grace of more manliness to features rather
turned to softness and delicacy, was marvellously enlivened by eyes
which were of the clearest sparkling black; in short he was one whom
any woman would, in the familiar style, ready call a very pretty
fellow.
I was now handed by him to the cockpit of our match, where, as I was
dressed in nothing but a white morning gown, he vouchsafed to play the
male Abigail on this occasion, and spared me the confusion that would
have attended the forwardness of undressing myself: my gown then was
loosen’d in a trice, and I divested of it; my stays next offered an
obstacle which readily gave way, Louisa very readily furnished a pair
of scissors to cut the lace; off went that shell and dropping my
uppercoat, I was reduced to my under one and my shift, the open bosom
of which gave the hands and eyes all the liberty they could wish. Here
I imagined the stripping was to stop, but I reckon short; my spark, at
the desire of the rest, tenderly begged, that I would not suffer the
small remains of a covering to rob them of a full view of my whole
person; and for me, who was too flexibly obsequious to dispute any
point with them, and who considered the little more that remained as
very immaterial, I readily assented to whatever he pleased-In an
instant, then, my under petticoat was untied and at my feet, and my
shift drawn over my head, so that my cap, slightly fastened, came off
with it, and brought all my hair down (of which, be it again remembered
without vanity, that I had a very fine head) in loose disorderly
ringlets, over my neck and shoulders, to the no unfavourable set-off of
my skin.
I now stood before my judges in all the truth of nature, to whom I
could not appear a very disagreeable figure, if you please to recollect
what I have beforesaid of my person, which time, that at certain
periods of life robs use every instant of our charms, had, at that of
mine, then greatly improved into full and open, bloom, for I wanted
some months of eighteen. My breasts, which in the state of nudity are
ever capital points, now in no more than in graceful plenitude,
maintained a firmness and steady independence of any stay or support,
that dared and invited the test of the touch. Then I was as tall, as
slim-shaped as could be consistent with all that juicy plumpness of
flesh, ever the most grateful to the senses of sight and touch, which I
owed to the health and youth of my constitution. I had not, however, so
thoroughly renounced all innate shame, as not to suffer great confusion
at the state I saw myself in; but the whole troop round me, men and
women, relieved me with every mark of applause and satisfaction, even
flattering attention to raise and inspire me with even sentiments of
pride on the figure I made, which my friend gallantly protested,
infinitely outshone all other birthday finery whatever; so that had I
leave to set down, for sincere, all the compliments these connoisseurs
overwhelmed me with upon this occasion, I might flatter myself with
having passed my examination with the approbation of the learned.
My friend, however, who for this time had alone the disposal of me,
humoured their curiosity, and perhaps his own, so far, that he placed
me in all the variety of postures and lights imaginable, pointing out
every beauty under every aspect of it, not without such parentheses, of
kisses, such inflammatory liberties of his roving hands, as made all
shame fly before them, and a blushing glow give place to a warmer one
of desire, which led me even to find some relish in the present scene.
But in this general survey, you may be sure, the most material spot of
me was not excused the strictest visitation; nor was it but agreed,
that I had not the least reason to be diffident of passing even for a
maid, on occasion; so inconsiderable a flaw had my preceding adventures
created there, and so soon had the blemish of an over-stretch been
repaired and worn out at any age, and in my naturally small make in
that part.
Now, whether my partner had exhausted all the modes of regaling the
touch or sight, or whether he was now ungovernably wound up to strike,
I know not; but briskly throwing off his clothes, the prodigious heat
bred by a close room, a great fire, numerous candles, and even the
inflammatory warmth of these scenes, induced him to lay aside his shirt
too, when his breeches, before loosened, now gave up their contents to
view, and shew’d in front the enemy I had to engage with, stiffly
bearing up the port of its head unhooded, and glowing red. Then I
plainly saw what I had to trust to: it was one of those just true-sized
instruments, of which the masters have a better command than the more
unwieldy, inordinate sized one are generally under. Straining me then
close to his bosom, as he stood up foreright against me, and applying
to the obvious niche its peculiar idol, he aimed at inserting it,
which, as I forwardly favoured, he effected at once, by canting up my
thighs over his naked hips, and made me receive every inch, and close
home; so-that stuck upon the pleasure-pivot, add clinging round his
neck, in which and in his hair I hid my face, burn-ingly flushing with
present feeling as much as with shame, my bosom glued to him; he
carried me once round the couch, on which he then, without quitting the
middle-fastness, or dischannelling, laid me down, and began with
pleasure-grist. But so provokingly predisposed and primed as we were,
by all the moving sights of the night, our imagination was too much
heated not to melt us of the soonest; and accordingly I no sooner felt
the warm spray darted up my inwards from him, but I was punctually on
flow, to share the momentary extasy; but I had yet greater reason to
boast of our harmony: for finding that all the flames of desire were
not yet quenched within me, but that rather, like wetted coals, I
glowed the fiercer for this sprinkling, my hot-mettled spark,
sympathizing with me, and loaded for a double fire, recontinued the
sweet battery with undying vigour; greatly encouraged to accommodate
all my motions to his best advantage and delight; kisses, squeezes,
tender murmurs, all came into play, till our joys growing more
turbulent and riotous, threw us into a fond disorder, and as they raged
to a point, bore us far from our selves into an ocean of boundless
pleasures, into which we both plunged together in a transport of taste.
Now all the impressions of burning desire, from the lively scenes I had
been spectatress of, ripened the heat of this exercise, and collecting
to a head, throbbed and agitated me with insupportable irritations: I
perfectly fevered and maddened with their excess. I bid not now enjoy a
calm of reason enough to perceive, but I ecstatically, indeed, felt the
power of such rare and exquisite provocatives, as the examples of the
night had proved towards thus exalting our pleasures: which, with great
joy, I sensibly found my gallant shared in, by his nervous and home
expressions of it: his eyes flashing eloquent flames, his action
infuriated with the stings of it, all conspiring to raise my delight,
by assuring me of his. Lifted then to the utmost pitch of joy that
human life can bear, undestroyed by excess, I touched that sweetly
critical point, whence scarce prevented by the injection from my
partner, I dissolved, and breaking out into a deep drawn sigh, sent my
whole sensitive soul down to that passage where escape was denied it,
by its being so deliciously plugged and choked up. Thus we lay a few
blissful instants, overpowered, still, and languid; till, as the sense
of pleasure stagnated, we recovered from our trance, and he slipt out
of me, not however before he had protested his extreme satisfaction by
the tenderest kiss and embrace, as well as by the most cordial
expressions.
The company, who had stood round us in a profound silence, when all was
over, helped me to hurry on my clothes in an instant, and complimented
me on the sincere homage they could not escape observing had been done
as they termed it—to the sovereignty of my charms, in my receiving a
double payment of tribute at one juncture. But my partner, now dressed
again, signalized, above all, a fondness unbated by the circumstance of