Only a clod
She thought of Harcourt Lowther; and his image seemed to shine upon her
across a wilderness of troubles; a bright and pleasant thing to look at,
but with no promise of help, no inspiration of hope, no pledge of
comfort in its brightness.
“Perhaps papa is right, after all,” she thought, “and Harcourt would
scarcely care to burden himself with a penniless wife.”
She was ashamed of this brief treason against her lover, almost as soon
as the thought had shaped itself; only in her despair it seemed to her
as if there could be no security of any happiness upon this earth.
“I will tell Francis Tredethlyn the truth about myself,” she thought;
“he shall not be deceived as to anything in which I am concerned. He
shall know of my engagement to Harcourt.”
Maude did not go downstairs again that night, nor did Mr. Hillary send
for her, as it was his wont to do when she was long away from him. It
may be that he scarcely cared to encounter his daughter after that
conversation in the dining-room, which had been far from pleasant to
him. He was not a father of Mr. Capulet’s class, who could order his
daughter to marry the County Paris at a few days’ notice; or in the
event of her refusal, bid her rot in the streets of Verona. But from the
very first he had been bent upon bringing about a union between Francis
and Maude, and he brooded moodily over the girl’s resolute rejection of
any such alliance.
“What would become of her if I were to die to-morrow?” he thought; “and
what is to become of my business if I fail to secure a rich partner?”
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CHAPTER XX.
AN EXPLANATION.
Francis Tredethlyn, now so frequent a visitor at the Cedars, happened to
present himself there upon the day after that on which Maude had come to
an understanding with her father. The young man rode down to Twickenham
in the afternoon, and found Miss Hillary occupied with two
croquet-playing young ladies and a croquet-playing young gentleman,
whose manners and opinions were of the same insipidly flaxen hue as
their hair and eyebrows.
There was a tired look in Maude’s face that afternoon, which was very
perceptible to Francis Tredethlyn, although quite invisible to the
neutral-tinted croquet-players. Her eyes wandered away sometimes from
the balls and mallets, and fixed themselves, with a sad, dreamy look,
upon the sunlit river or the distant woodland. Francis saw this, and
that faithful Cornish heart grew heavy in sympathy with Miss Hillary’s
unknown trouble. There must be a little of the Newfoundland dog in the
nature of a man who can love hopelessly; a little of that superhuman
fidelity, a little of that canine endurance which has inspired so many
odious comparisons to the disparagement of the inferior animal called
man. Francis Tredethlyn’s eyes followed Miss Hillary with a dog-like
patience all this afternoon, during which he established himself in the
estimation of the flaxen-haired droppers-in as one of the vilest of
croquet-players and worst-mannered of men. But the croquet-players
departed, after taking tea out of a very ugly Queen-Anne teapot and some
old Sèvres cups and saucers, which had been bought for Miss Hillary at
the sale of a defunct collector’s goods and chattels, at Messrs.
Christie and Manson’s. Francis stayed to dinner, and dined alone with
Maude and her father, and found very little to say for himself. He was
distracted by the sight of Maude’s pale face and sadly thoughtful eyes.
How changed she was from the bright and sparkling creature whom he
remembered a few months ago in that house! How changed! What was the
secret trouble which had worked that transformation? What could it be
except Miss Hillary’s sorrow for the circumstances that divided her from
her distant lover? There could be no other cause for her unhappiness,
since her father’s commercial difficulties had been smoothed by that
twenty thousand pounds so freely advanced to him; and it never occurred
to Francis that Maude Hillary could possibly give herself any uneasiness
about that money, so lightly parted with by him; nor could he think that
any new trouble threatened the merchant’s peace, for Mr. Hillary was
specially gay and pleasant this evening.
After dinner Maude strolled out into the garden, and down to that
delicious terrace by the river, where the big stone vases of geraniums
looked dark and grim in the twilight. She walked slowly up and down the
long esplanade with a filmy lace handkerchief tied coquettishly over her
head, and her long muslin dress sweeping and rustling after her like the
draperies of a fashionably-attired ghost. Francis Tredethlyn furtively
watched that white-robed figure in the shadowy distance as he sat at the
dinner-table with Mr. Hillary, and would fain have left his glass,
filled with the merchant’s rarest Burgundy, for a stroll by the quiet
river. Perhaps Mr. Hillary perceived this, for he presently gave the
young man his release.
“Since you don’t drink your wine, you may as well go for a stroll in the
garden, Tredethlyn,” he said, good-naturedly. “I see Maude yonder; and
she’ll be better company for you than I am.”
Francis was by no means slow to take this hint. But once outside the
dining-room windows, he went very slowly to the terrace on which Maude
was walking. He walked in and out among the flower-beds, making a faint
pretence of admiring nature in this twilight aspect. He stopped to
caress one of Maude’s Skye terriers. The animals were very fond of him
now that he had learned to avoid that trampling on their toes which had
been one of the earlier manifestations of his devotion to Miss Hillary.
He loitered here and there on every possible pretext, and at last
approached the fair deity in the muslin dress with very much the air of
a schoolboy, who presents himself in that awful audience-chamber wherein
a grim pedagogue is wont to pronounce terrible judgments upon youthful
offenders.
He did not know that Miss Hillary had been expecting him all this time;
and that her special purpose was to bring him to her side upon that
solitary terrace-walk, where she could talk to him freely without fear
of eavesdroppers. He did not know that he was quite as much expected as
the schoolboy who has been summoned to the parlour, and was to receive a
sentence as terrible.
Maude welcomed him very graciously, and for a little while they strolled
side by side, talking of the summer’s night, and the flowers, and Skye
terriers, and canary-birds, and other subjects equally commonplace and
harmless. Then they came to a stop, mechanically, as it is in the nature
of people to do when they walk by the side of a river, and looked over
the stone balustrade into the still water. And then a death-like silence
came down upon them; and Maude Hillary felt that the time had come in
which she must utter whatever she had it in her mind to say. It was
difficult to begin; but then all her duties of late had been difficult;
and upon her knees the night before, in the midst of tearful prayers and
meditations, she had resolved that there should be no more sailing under
false colours as regarded this young man.
“Dear Mr. Tredethlyn,” she began at last, “you have been so good to my
father, so good to me--for to serve him is to render a double service to
me--you have been so kind and generous a friend, that I have grown to
think of you and trust you almost as I might if you had been my
brother.”
Poor Francis listened to this exordium with a very despondent air.
Inexperienced as he was in the ways of the world, he was wise enough to
know that there was nothing hopeful in such an address as this. When a
young lady tells a gentleman that she can regard him as a brother, it is
the plainest possible declaration that he can never be anything else. In
this case it seemed an uncalled-for act of cruelty, for the Cornishman
had never deluded himself by any false hope.
“I think of you almost as if you were my brother,” Maude went on, with
heartless repetition of the obnoxious word; “and I cannot help thinking,
dear Mr. Tredethlyn, that you are scarcely employing your life as wisely
or as well as you might. I don’t think you were ever intended to be an
idle man; and again, with such a fortune as yours, a man has scarcely
the right to be idle. There are so many people who may be benefited by a
rich man’s active life. Oh, forgive me if I seem to lecture you. You
will laugh at me, perhaps, and think I want to set myself up as a
strong-minded woman, a political economist, or something of that kind.
But I only venture to speak to you because I think you waste so much of
your time down here, playing billiards with the empty-headed young men
who haunt this place, and lounging in the drawing-room to hear the
frivolous talk of half-a-dozen idle women, myself among the number.”
She spoke lightly, but she was not the less earnest in her intention;
she was only travelling gradually round to the point she wanted to
reach.
“But I am so happy here,” cried Francis Tredethlyn. “Ah, if you knew how
I have tried to stop away--if you could only know what happiness it is
to me to come----”
Maude Hillary interrupted him hastily.
“Yes, I know it is a pleasant life in its way,” she said; “very pleasant
and very useless. It is a little new to you perhaps, and seems
pleasanter to you on that account. But if you knew what dreary work it
is to look back at a long summer season of operas, and concerts, and
horticultural meetings, and boat-races, and not to be able to remember
one action worthy of being recorded in all that time! I am getting very
tired of my present life, Mr. Tredethlyn. It has ceased to be pleasant
to me ever since I have known of papa’s difficulties. It is altogether
unsuited to me; for I am engaged to marry a poor man, who would bitterly
feel the burden of an expensive wife.”
The bolt was launched, and Miss Hillary expected to see some evidence
that it had gone home to its mark. But Francis Tredethlyn made no sign.
There was just a little pause, and then he said very quietly,--
“Yes, I know that you are to marry a poor man; but with such a wife a
man could scarcely remain poor. I suppose it’s only an ignorant foolish
notion, but I can’t help thinking that for the sake of the woman he
loves, any man could cut his way to fortune. I can always believe in
those knights of the olden time, who used to put a badge in their
helmets, and then ride off to the wars to do all sorts of miraculous
things; and I fancy it must be the same now-a-days, somehow; and that a
man who loves truly, and is truly loved again, can achieve anything.”
Maude was inexpressibly relieved by this speech.
“You know of my engagement, then?” she said.
“Yes, I have known it for a very long time.”
“Ah, of course, Julia told you?”
“Yes, it was Miss Desmond who told me.”
“She had a perfect right to do so; there was no reason for any secrecy
in the matter. I am very glad that you have known of it. You are so kind
a friend that I should not like you to be ignorant of anything nearly
relating to my father or myself.”
“It is very good of you to call me a friend,” Francis answered. It
seemed to him as if some angelic creature was stooping from her own
proper sphere to place herself for a brief interval by his side. “It is
very good of you to take any interest in my welfare; and I feel that you
are right. The life I lead is utterly idle and useless; but it shall be
so no longer. Your father has very generously offered me a grand
opportunity of turning both my time and money to account.”
“My father? But how?”
“He has offered me a partnership in his own house.”
“A partnership?--a partnership in his difficulties--his liabilities?”