Only a girl's love
And as for him, for the man of the world, he too stood amazed,
overwhelmed by the new-born joy. If any one had told him that life held
such a moment for him, he would not have believed it; he who had, as he
thought, drained the cup of earthly pleasure to the dregs. His blood
ran wildly through his veins, his heart beat madly.
"At last," he murmured; "this is love."
But suddenly the awakening came. With a start she looked up at him and
strove to free herself, vainly, from his embrace.
"What have I done?" she whispered, with awe-subdued voice.
"Done!" he murmured, with a rapt smile. "Made one man happier than he
ever dreamed it possible for mortal to be. That is all."
"Ah, no!" she said; "I have done wrong! I am afraid!--afraid!"
"Afraid of what? There is nothing to make you afraid. Can you speak of
fear while you are in my arms--with your head on my breast? Lean back,
my darling; now speak of fear."
"Yes, even now," she whispered. "Now--and I am so happy!" she broke off
to herself, but he heard her. "So happy! Is it all a dream? Tell me."
He bent and kissed her.
"Is it a dream, do you think?" he answered.
The crimson dyed her face and neck, and her eyes drooped.
"And you are happy?" he said. "Think what I must be. For a man's love
is deeper, more passionate than a woman's, Stella. Think what I must
be!"
She sighed and looked up at him.
"But still it is wrong! I fear that. All the world will say that."
"All the world!" he echoed, with smiling scorn. "What have we to do
with the world? We two stand outside, beyond it. Our world is love--is
our two selves, my darling."
"All the world," she said. "Ah! what will they say?" and instinctively
she glanced over her shoulder at the great house with the glow of light
streaming from its many windows. "Even now--now they are wondering
where you are, expecting, waiting for you. What would they say if they
knew you were here with me--and--and all that has happened?"
His eyes darkened. He knew better than she, with all her fears, what
they would say, and already he was braving himself to meet the storm,
but he smiled to re-assure her.
"They will say that I am the most fortunate of men. They will say that
the gods have lavished their good gifts with both hands--they have
given me all the things that you make so much of, and the greatest of
all things--the true sole love of a pure, beautiful angel."
"Oh, hush, hush!" she murmured.
"You are an angel to me," he said, simply. "I am not worthy to touch
the hem of your dress! If I could but live my worthless, sinful life
over again, for your sake, my darling, it should be purer and a little
less unworthy of you."
"Oh, hush!" she murmured. "You unworthy of me! You are my king!"
Strong man as he was he was stirred and moved to the depths of his
being at the simple words, eloquent of her absolute trust and devotion.
"My Stella," he murmured, "if you knew all; but see, my life is yours
from henceforth. I place it in your hands, mold it as you will. It is
yours henceforth."
She was looking at him, all her soul in her eyes, and at his words
of passionate protestation, a sudden thrill ran through her, then as
instantly, as if a sudden cold hand had come between them, she shivered.
"Mine," she breathed, fearfully, "until they snatch it from me."
CHAPTER XIII.
He started. The words had almost the solemnity of a prophesy.
"Who will dare?" he said; then he laughed. "My little, fearsome,
trembling darling!" he murmured, "fear nothing or rather, tell me what
you fear, and whom."
She glanced toward the windows.
"I fear them all!" she said, quietly and simply.
"My father?"
She inclined her head and let her head fall upon his shoulder.
"The countess, all of them. Lord Leycester----"
He put his hand upon her lips softly.
"What was that I heard?" he said, with tender reproach.
She looked up.
"Leycester," she whispered.
He nodded.
"Would to Heaven the name stood alone," he said, almost bitterly. "The
barrier you fancy stands between us would vanish and fade away then.
Never, even in sport, call me by my title again, my darling, or I shall
hate it!"
She smiled.
"I shall never forget it," she said. "They will not let me. I am not
Lady Lenore."
He started slightly, then looked down at her.
"Thank Heaven, no!" he said, with a smile.
Stella smiled almost sadly.
"She might forget; she is noble too. How beautiful she is!"
"Is she?" he said, smiling down at her. "To me there is only one
beautiful face in the world, and--it is here," and he touched it with
his finger--"here--my very own. But what is Lenore to us to-night, my
darling? Why do you speak of her?"
"Because--shall I tell you?"
He nodded, looking down at her.
"Because they said--Lady Lilian said, that----" she stopped.
"Well?"
"That they wished you to marry her," she whispered.
He laughed, his short laugh.
"She might say the same of several young ladies," he said. "My mother
is very anxious on the point. Yes, but wishes are not horses, or one
could probably be persuaded to mount and ride as their parents wish
them--don't that sound wise and profound? I shall not ride to Lady
Lenore; I have ridden to your feet, my darling!"
"And you will never ride away again," she murmured.
"Never," he said. "Here, by your side, I shall remain while life lasts!"
"While life lasts!" she repeated, as if the words were music. "I shall
have you near me always. Ah, it sounds too beautiful! too beautiful!"
"But it will be true," he said.
The clock chimed the hour. Stella started.
"So late!" she said, with a little sigh. "I must go!" and she glanced
at the windows with a little shudder. "If I could but steal away
without seeing them--without being seen! I feel--" she paused, and the
crimson covered her face and neck--"as if they had but to glance at me
to know--to know what has happened," and she trembled.
"Are you so afraid?" he said. "Really so afraid? Well, why should they
know?"
She looked up eagerly.
"Oh, no, do not let them know! Why should we tell them; it--it is like
letting them share in our happiness; it is our secret, is it not?"
"Let us keep it," he said, quietly, musingly. "Why should they know,
indeed! Let us keep the world outside, for a while at least. You and I
alone in our love, my darling."
With his arm round her they went back to the fernery, and here she drew
away from him, but not until he had taken another kiss.
"It is our real 'good night,' you know," he said; "the 'good-night' we
shall say presently will mean nothing. This is our 'good-night.' Happy
dreams, my angel, my star!"
Stella clung to him for a moment with a little reluctant sigh, then she
looked up at him with a smile.
"I am afraid I am awfully tumbled and tangled," she said, putting her
hand to her hair.
He smoothed the silken threads with his hand, and as he did so drew the
rose from her hair.
"This is mine," he murmured, and he put it in his coat.
"Oh, no!" she exclaimed. "And this is how you keep our secret! Do you
not think every eye would notice that great rose, and know whence it
came?"
"Yes, yes, I see," he said. "After all, a woman is the one for a
secret--the man is not in the field; but then it will be safe here,"
and he put the rose inside the breast of his coat.
Then trying to look as if nothing had happened, trying to look as if
the whole world had not become changed for her, Stella sauntered into
the drawing-room by his side.
And it really seemed as if no one had noticed their entrance. Stella
felt inclined to congratulate herself, not taking into consideration
the usages of high breeding, which enable so many people to look as if
they were unaware of an entrance which they had been expecting for an
hour since.
"No one seems to notice," she whispered behind her fan, but Lord
Leycester smiled--he knew better.
She walked up the room, and Lord Leycester stopped before a picture
and pointed to it; but he did not speak of the picture--instead, he
murmured:
"Will you meet me by the stile by the river to-morrow evening, Stella?"
"Yes," she murmured.
"I will bring the boat, and we will row down the stream. Will you come
at six o'clock?"
"Yes," she said again.
If he asked her to meet him on the banks of the Styx, she would have
answered as obediently.
Then Mr. Etheridge approached with the countess, and before he could
speak Lord Leycester took the bull by the horns, as it were.
"Lilian is delighted with the sketch," he said. "We left her filled
with gratitude, did we not Miss Etheridge?"
Stella inclined her head. The large, serene eyes of the countess seemed
to penetrate to the bottom of her heart and read her--their--secret
already.
"I think we must be going, Stella; the fly has been waiting some time,"
said her uncle in his quiet fashion.
"So soon!" murmured the countess.
But Mr. Etheridge glanced at the clock with a smile, and Stella held
out her hand.
As she did so, she felt rather than saw the graceful form of Lady
Lenore coming toward them.
"Are you going, Miss Etheridge?" she said, her clear voice full of
regret. "We have seen so little of you; and I meant to ask you so much
about Italy. I am so sorry."
And as she spoke, she looked full into poor Stella's eyes.
For a moment Stella was silent and downcast, then she raised her eyes
and held out her hand.
"It is late," she murmured. "Yes, we must go."
As she looked up, she met the gaze of the violet eyes, and almost
started, for there seemed to be shining in them a significant smile of
mocking scorn and contemptuous amusement; they seemed to say, quite
plainly:
"You think that no one knows your secret. You think that you have
triumphed, that you have won him. Poor simple child, poor fool. Wait
and see!"
If ever eyes spoke, this is what Lady Lenore's seemed to say in that
momentary glance, and as Stella turned aside, her face paled slightly.
"You must come and see us again, Miss Etheridge," said the countess,
graciously.
"Lilian has extorted a solemn promise to that effect," said Leycester,
as he shook hands with Mr. Etheridge.
Then he held out his hand to Stella, but in spite of prudence he could
not part from her till the last moment.
"Let me take you to your carriage," he said, "and see that you are well
wrapped up."
The countess's eyes grew cold, and she looked beyond them rather than
at them, and Stella murmured something about trouble, but he laughed
softly, and drawing her hand on his arm led her away.
All the room saw it, and a sort of thrill ran through them; it was
an attention he paid only to such old and honored friends as the old
countess and Lenore.
"Oh, why did you come?" whispered Stella, as they reached the hall.
"The countess looked so angry."
He smiled.
"I could not help it. There, not a word more. Now let me wrap this
round you;" and, of course, as he wrapped it round her, he managed to
convey a caress in the touch of his hand.
"Remember, my darling," he murmured, almost dangerously loud, as he put
her into the fly. "To-morrow at six."
Then he stood bareheaded, and the last Stella saw was the light of
tender, passionate love burning in his dark eyes.
She sank back in the furthermost corner of the fly in silent, rapt
reflection. Was it all a dream? Was it only a trick of fancy, or did
she feel his passionate kisses on her lips and face entangled in her
hair. Had she really heard Lord Leycester Wyndward declare that he
loved her?
"Are you asleep, Stella?" said her uncle, and she started.
"No, not asleep, dear," she said. "But--but tired and so happy!" The
word slipped out before she was aware of it.
But the unsuspecting recluse did not notice the thrill of joy in the
tone of her reply.