The Goose Man
Baron's diminutive residence. But the Baroness felt that she was not
capable of this: she feared it would mean her death. "Take me home with
you, Emilia," she said to her daughter, "and you go over and have a talk
with Eberhard first."
But Emilia had not seen Eberhard once during the nine years of her
married life, and was even less inclined than her mother to meet him
now. Nor was it possible to take the Baroness to her home. The old lady
had evidently forgotten that she had told Count Urlich never to show his
face in her presence again. The occasion of this inexorable request was
the time she learned that the governess of his child was in a family way
and that he was responsible for her disgrace.
Since the Baroness stoutly refused to return either to her town
residence or to Siegmundshof, there was nothing for Emilia to do but to
take her to a hotel. Herr Carovius, who had accompanied the two women on
the street and had enjoyed to the full their pitiable distress,
suggested that they go to the Bavarian Court. He climbed up on the seat
by the coachman, told him how to get there, and looked down in regal
triumph on the pedestrians.
Countess Emilia, quite at her wits' end, sent a telegram to her Aunt
Agatha. The next Wednesday Frau von Erfft with her daughter Sylvia
arrived. "Clotilda acts as if she had lost her mind," she said to Emilia
after having spent an hour in the room with her sister. "I am going to
see your father. I must have a long talk with Siegmund."
The Baron received his sister-in-law with marked coolness, though he had
always had a great deal of respect for her.
Frau von Erfft was quite careful to avoid any reference to the family
affairs. She talked about Sylvia, remarking that she was now
twenty-seven years old, and that she had rejected all her suitors, a
fact which was causing her parents a measure of concern. "She simply
will not be contented," said Frau Agatha. "She is bent on securing a
special mission in her marriage, and fears nothing so much as the loss
of her personal liberty. That is the way our children are, dear
Siegmund; and if we had brought them into the world differently, they
would be different. In our day the ideal was obedience; but now children
have discovered the duty they owe themselves."
"Then they should look out for themselves," replied the Baron gloomily.
He had fully appreciated what his sister-in-law was driving at.
From the confused and incoherent remarks of her sister, Agatha had
learned what had taken place between the Baron and the Baroness. She was
familiar with the painful past; and when she looked into the old Baron's
eyes, she saw what was necessary. She made up her mind then and there to
have Eberhard meet his mother.
She wished above everything else to quiet Clotilda and persuade her to
return home. The task, owing to the weakness and instability of the
Baroness, was not difficult. Sylvia remained with her aunt, and her
quiet, resolute disposition had a wholesome effect upon her. In the
meantime Agatha had got Eberhard's address. After some search she found
the house: Eberhard was at home.
IV
The first talk she had with him passed off without results of any kind.
He evaded her courageous remarks, and failed to hear what he did not
care to hear. He was stiff, polite, and annoyingly listless. Agatha,
full of vexation, told her daughter of her disappointment. Sylvia said
she would like to go with her mother the next time she visited Eberhard.
Agatha shook her head, though she was in no way minded to abandon her
purpose.
There was no change at the Baron's house. Baroness Clotilda was in a
perpetual state of nervous excitement that was anything but reassuring
either to herself or those about her. The Baron was a disquieting riddle
to the entire household: he never left his room; he paced up and down
hours at a time, with his hands folded across his back.
Agatha called on her nephew a second, a third, a fourth time. Even
though Eberhard's Arctic impenetrability seemed made for all time,
though yielding seemed to be no part of his nature, she finally
succeeded in jolting him loose from his bearings. And when Sylvia
accompanied her mother--Sylvia generally won her point with her
mother--he shook off his armour with unexpected suddenness; you could
see the struggles that were going on in his soul.
Falteringly, and in the affected and finical tone he not infrequently
adopted, he told the story of his youth, commenting on the everlasting
discord between his father and his mother and the disagreeable quarrels
that used to take place at home. He said that just as soon as his mother
would ask that something be done, his father would demand the opposite.
The children soon saw that father was going his way and mother hers;
they were not unaware of the fact that their parents cordially
distrusted each other and even went so far as to lay traps for each
other. He insisted that his mother, with all her amiability and
gentleness, was obsessed with the idea of teasing, annoying, and
wounding his father on that very point where she had already and so
often teased, annoyed, and wounded him before; and that this lack of
reason and consideration on her part, coupled with the absence of
kindness and candour on his, had made the paternal home a hell, torn at
the hearts of the growing children, and in time so hardened them that
they suspected every friendly face they saw, and withdrew, as if so from
something vile, from every hand that was reached out to them. He related
further that in this loveless wilderness brother and sister had been
drawn to each other, that in Emilia's heart, and his own as well, this
mutual friendship was cherished as a sacred, inviolable possession, so
sacred that it impelled them in time to establish a league against all
the rest of the world. How did they conduct themselves once this league
had been founded? If they read a book it was in common; they kept no
secrets from each other, advised each other, and shared their happiness
and sorrow equally, until one fine day Emilia's father appeared before
her, and informed her that Count Urlich had asked for her hand and that
he had promised that he should have it.
At this point in the story, Eberhard became silent; he bit his lips; his
ashen face, that had never before reminded Agatha so much of the old
Baron, betrayed an incurable grief.
Agatha was familiar with this incident, in rough outline; but as
Eberhard related it, it stirred her soul to the very depths. "One must
try to forget," she said.
"Forget? No, that I cannot do; never have been able to do. Be it a
matter of virtue or of vice, I cannot forget. Emilia, then still half
child and only half woman, was made flexible in time. But that my mother
did not do everything in her power to prevent this gruesome deed, and
that it caused her to sink deeper and deeper into the coils of domestic
anguish by reason of her innate and gnawing weakness--that was the
bitterest experience of my entire life."
"But she is your mother, Eberhard. Never in the history of the human
family has a son had the right to condemn his mother."
"That is news to me," replied Eberhard coldly. "Mothers are human beings
like any one else. Even mothers can commit a sin by filling their
children with the poison of distrust and disgust with life. Father and
mother, parents: they are a symbol, a glorious one when they hover above
us and around us, worthy of respect and calling for filial veneration.
But if I am bound to them only by the ties of duty, they are not
symbols; they are mere phantoms, conceptions of human speech. There is
no duty but the duty of love."
Sylvia had sat in perfect silence. Unconsciously she had followed the
most beautiful law of harmonious souls: to wield an influence, to have
power, not through the use of words and the elaboration of reasons, but
by a pure life, an unquestioned existence. Agreement and disagreement
lay like a play of light and shadow on her brow.
In this way she reminded Eberhard more and more of Eleanore.
Perhaps it was the power of this memory that moved him to promise that
he would go with Agatha on the following day to his mother. The sole
condition he imposed was that he be assured that he would not meet his
father.
Seeing that he was relentless in this request, Frau von Erfft conceded
it, though she had a reassuring premonition that the events and the hour
would be stronger than will and purpose.
V
On entering his mother's boudoir, Eberhard's eyes fell at once on the
alabaster clock, the face of which was supported by three figures
representing the daughters of time. In his childhood days the clock had
always had a highly poetic meaning to him: it seemed to symbolise the
fulfilment of his most ardent wishes.
The Baroness had been prepared for his coming by her sister. While
Eberhard and Sylvia had been standing in the corner room waiting, a few
of the servants had gathered at the door, where they whispered to each
other timidly.
Eberhard went up to his mother and kissed her hand. The Baroness's face
was the colour of lead; her eyes were opened as wide as possible, and
yet she seemed hardly conscious. Emilia stood at one side; her hands
were pressed to her bosom, her fingers were twitching convulsively.
Frau Agatha endeavoured to relieve the situation of its solemnity and
unnaturalness by making a few humorous remarks about Eberhard's hiding
place on the hill by the Castle. Baroness Clotilda looked at her son in
anxious and uneasy suspense: "I scarcely recognise him," she said with a
hoarse voice, "he has changed so."
"You have changed, too, Mother," said Eberhard, as his chin sought
refuge between the lapels of his coat. He was as stiff as a poker.
Agatha looked at him full of vexation and annoyance. He acted as though
he were being bored by the meeting.
But it was only a mask. As he looked at the old, indistinct, tired,
bullied face, he became conscious of his mistake: he felt that he was
wrong in saying that "Mothers are also human beings." He saw at once
that amends had to be made, that action was necessary; he felt that his
next step would lead to inevitable self-contempt if he neglected the
moral deed of repentance.
As he struggled with himself and stared, as if paralysed, into the
rebellion of his own soul, a certain pair of eyes had forced their way
behind the seeming apathy. A sudden blush came to Sylvia's cheeks: she
went up to her cousin, and took him by the hand. He quivered; he saw at
once that she had divined what was going on in his soul, and now she was
determined to bring his fight to a close, a final, definite close. She
took him out of the room; he followed her; she led him through the
dining room, the reception room, the smoking room, the library, and on
to his father's room. Agatha, Emilia, and the Baroness looked at each
other in amazement. They went to the door of the room, and listened in
breathless suspense.
Sylvia opened the door rather boldly. The old Baron was sitting on the
leather chair before the stove. His legs were wrapped in a blanket; the
expression on his face was of stony coldness.
Hardly had he noticed the two when he sprang to his feet as if the
lightning had struck close by him. He shook; he faltered; he groped
about for a physical support; and from his throat there came a stifled
gurgle. That was all.
Eberhard walked over to him, and reached out his hand.
For a moment it seemed as if the old man would collapse. A last flash of
hatred and revenge shot from his blue eyes; then he too reached out his
hand. His arm trembled; thick knots of quivering muscles formed on his
cheeks. Sylvia had gently closed the door and vanished.