The History of Sir Richard Calmady: A Romance
herself and Richard, Katherine realised that there were blank spaces
not only in her knowledge of his past action, but in her knowledge of
the sentiments which now animated him. As from a far country his mind,
she perceived, often traveled to meet hers. "There was a door to which
she found no key." But Katherine, happily, could respect the
individuality even of her best beloved. Unlike the majority of her sex
she was incapable of intrusion, and did not make affection an excuse
for familiarity. Love, in her opinion, enjoins obligation of service,
rather than confers rights of examination and direction. She had
learned the condition in which his servants had found Richard, in the
opera box of the great theatre at Naples, lying upon the floor
unconscious, his face disfigured, cut, and bleeding. But what had
produced this condition, whether accident or act of violence, she had
not learned. She had also learned that her niece, Helen de Vallorbes,
had stayed at the villa just before the commencement of Richard's
illness--he merely passing his days there, and spending his nights on
board the yacht in the harbour, where, no doubt, that same illness had
been contracted. But she resisted the inclination to attempt further
discovery. She even resisted the inclination to speculate regarding all
this. What Richard might elect to tell her, that, and that only, would
she know, lest, seeking further, bitter and vindictive thoughts should
arise in her and mar the calm, pathetic sweetness of the present and
her deep, abiding joy in the recovery of her so-long-lost delight. She
refused to go behind the fact--the glad fact that Richard once more was
with her, that her eyes beheld him, her ears heard his voice, her hands
met his. Every little act of thoughtful care, every pretty word of
half-playful affection, confirmed her thankfulness and made the present
blest. Even this somewhat morbid tendency of his to shut himself away
from the observation of all acquaintance, conferred on her such sweetly
exclusive rights of intercourse that she could not greatly quarrel with
his secluded way of life. As to the business of the estate and
household, this had become so much a matter of course to her that it
caused her but small labour. If she could deal with it when Richard was
estranged and far away, very surely she could deal with it now, when
she had but to open the door of that vast, silvery-tinted, pensively
fragrant, many-windowed room, and entering, among its many strange and
costly treasures, find him--a treasure as strange, and if counted by
her past suffering, as costly, as ever ravished and tortured a woman's
heart.
And so it came about that, to such few friends as she received,
Katherine could show a serene countenance. Shortly before Christmas,
Miss St. Quentin came to Brockhurst, and coming stayed, adapting
herself with ready tact to the altered conditions of life there.
Katherine found not only pleasure, but support, in the younger woman's
presence, in her devoted yet unexacting affection, in her practical
ability, and in the sight of so graceful a creature going to and fro.
She installed her guest in the Gun-Room suite. And, by insensible
degrees, permitted Honoria to return to many of her former avocations
in connection with the estate, so that the young lady took over much of
the outdoor business, riding forth almost daily, by herself or in
company with Julius March, to superintend matters of building or
repairing, of road-mending, hedging, copsing, or forestry, and not
infrequently cheering Chifney--a somewhat sour-minded man just now and
prickly-tempered, since Richard asked no word of him or of his
horses--by visits to the racing stables.
"I had better step down and have a crack with the poor, old dear,
Cousin Katherine," she would say, "or those unlucky little wretches of
boys will catch it double tides, which really is rather superfluous."
And all the while, amid her very varied interests and occupations,
remembrance of that hidden, twilight life, going forward up-stairs in
the well-known rooms which she now never entered, came to Honoria as
some perpetually recurrent and mournful harmony, in an otherwise not
ungladsome piece of music, might have come. It exercised a certain
dominion over her mind. So that Richard Calmady, though never actually
seen by her, was never wholly absent from her thought. All the orderly
routine of the great house, all the day's work and the sentiment of it,
was subtly influenced by awareness of the actuality of his invisible
presence. And this affected her strongly, causing her hours of
repulsion and annoyance, and again hours of abounding, if reluctant
pity, when the unnatural situation of this man--young as herself,
endowed with a fine intelligence, an aptitude for affairs, the craving
for amusement common to his age and class--and the pathos inherent in
that situation, haunted her imagination. His self-inflicted
imprisonment appeared a reflection upon, in a sense a reproach to, her
own freedom of soul and pleasant liberty of movement. And this troubled
her. It touched her pride somehow. It produced in her a false
conscience, as though she were guilty of an unkindness, a lack of
considerateness and perfect delicacy.
"Whether he behaves well or ill, whether he is good or bad, Richard
Calmady invariably takes up altogether too much room," she would tell
herself half angrily--to find herself within half an hour, under plea
of usefulness to his mother, warmly interested in some practical matter
from which Richard Calmady would derive, at least indirectly, distinct
advantage and benefit!
This, then, was the state of affairs one Saturday afternoon at the
beginning of February. With poor Dickie himself the day had been marked
by abundant discouragement. He was well in body. The restfulness of one
quiet, uneventful week following another had steadied his nerves,
repaired the waste of fever, and restored his physical strength. But,
along with this return of health had come a growing necessity to lay
hold of some idea, to discover some basis of thought, some incentive to
action, which should make life less purposeless and unprofitable.
Richard, in short, was beginning to generate more energy than he could
place. The old order had passed away, and no new order had, as yet,
effectively disclosed itself. He had not formulated all this, or even
consciously recognised the modification of his own attitude.
Nevertheless he felt the gnawing ache of inward emptiness. It
effectually broke up the torpor which had held him. It made him very
restless. It reawoke in him an inclination to speculation and
experiment.
Snow had fallen during the earlier hours of the day, and, the surface
of the ground being frost-bound, it, though by no means deep, remained
unmelted. The whiteness of it, given back by the ceiling and pale
paneling of walls of the Long-Gallery, notwithstanding the generous
fires burning in the two ornate, high-ranging chimney-places, produced,
as the day waned, an effect of rather stark cheerlessness in the great
room. This was at once in unison with Richard's somewhat bleak humour,
and calculated to increase the famine of it.
All day long he had tried to stifle the cry of that same famine, that
same hunger of unplaced energy, by industrious work. He had examined,
noted, here and there transcribed, passages from deeds, letters,
order-books, and diaries offering first-hand information regarding
former generations of Calmadys. It happened that studies he had
recently made in contemporary science, specially in obtaining theories
of biology, had brought home to him what tremendous factors in the
development and fate of the individual are both evolution and heredity.
At first idly, and as a mere pastime, then with increasing
eagerness--in the vague hope his researches might throw light on
matters of moment to himself and of personal application--he had tried
to trace out tastes and strains of tendency common to his ancestors.
But under this head he had failed to make any very notable discoveries.
For these courtiers, soldiers, and sportsmen were united merely by the
obvious characteristics of a high-spirited, free-living race. They were
raised above the average of the country gentry, perhaps, by a greater
appreciation, than is altogether common, of literature and art. But as
Richard soon perceived it was less any persistent peculiarity of mental
and physical constitution, than a similarity of outward event united
them. The perpetually repeated chronicle of violence and accident which
he read, in connection with his people, intrigued his reason, and
called for explanation. Was it possible, he began to ask himself, that
a certain heredity in incident, in external happening, may not cling to
a race? That these may not by some strange process be transmissible, as
are traits of character, temperament, stature, colouring, feature, and
face? And if this--as matter of speculation merely--was the case, must
there not exist some antecedent cause to which could be referred such
persistent effect? Might not an hereditary fate in external events take
its rise in some supreme moral or spiritual catastrophe, some violation
of law? The Greek dramatists held it was so. The writers of the Old
Testament held it was so, too.
Sitting at the low writing-table, near the blazing fire, that stark
whiteness reflected from off the snow-covered land all around him,
Richard debated this point with himself. He admitted the theory was not
scientific, according to the reasoning of modern physical science. It
approached an outlook theological rather than rationalistic, yet he
could not deny the conception, admission. The vision of a doomed family
arose before him--starting in each successive generation with brilliant
prospects and high hope, only to find speedy extinction in some more or
less brutal form of death--a race dwindling, moreover, in numbers as
the years passed, until it found representation in a single individual,
and that individual maimed, and incomplete! Heredity of accident,
heredity of disaster, finding final expression in himself--this
confronted Richard.--He had reckoned himself, heretofore, a solitary
example of ill-fortune. But, mastering the contents of these records,
he found himself far from solitary. He merely participated, though
under a novel form, in the unlucky fate of all the men of his race. And
then arose the question--to him, under existing circumstances, of vital
importance--what stood behind all that--blind chance, cynical
indifference, wanton and arbitrary cruelty, or some august,
far-reaching necessity of, as yet, unsatisfied justice?
Richard pushed the crackling, stiffly-folded parchments, the letters
frayed and yellow with age, the broken-backed, discoloured diaries and
order-books, away from him, and sat, his elbows on the table, his chin
in his hands, thinking. And the travail of his spirit was great, as it
needs must be, at times, with every human being who dares live at
first, not merely at second hand--who dares attempt a real, and not
merely a nominal assent--who dares deal with earthly existence, the
amazing problems and complexities of it, immediately, refusing to
accept--with indolent timidity--tradition, custom, hearsay,
convenience, as his guides.--Oh! for some sure answering, some
unimpeachable assurance, some revelation not relative and symbolic, but
absolute, some declaration above all suspicion of cunningly-devised
opportunism, concerning the dealings of the unknown force man calls
God, with the animal man calls man!--And then Richard turned upon
himself contemptuously. For it was childish to cry out thus. The
heavens were dumb above him as the snow-bound earth was dumb beneath.
There was no sign!--Never had been. Never would be, save in the fond