The Vision of Desire
"Yes, miss, jes' what I said, wasn't it?" agreed Maria. "You can see 'em
all on board this morning--busy as bees in a hive."
Ann stepped out of bed and went to the window. It was quite true. Far below
in the bay she could see the shining _Sphinx_, and there were signs of
unmistakable activity on board. She drew a long breath. If Brett were
going, it was good news--not bad! She had always been secretly afraid
of him. Now--now that she was aware of the part he had played in the
destruction of her happiness, she knew that she would never again be able
to see him without recalling all that she had lost. He seemed to her to
embody the whole tragedy which had befallen her.
And the yacht--his yacht--waiting, waiting always in the bay, like a cat at
a mousehole....
Two hours later Ann stood on the cliff and watched the _Sphinx_ steam
slowly out to sea, and with the last gleam of the yacht's white stern it
seemed to her as though some inexplicable, still lingering menace were
removed.
CHAPTER XXVII
THE TRUTH
"_Café noir? Bien, m'sieu_."
The alert French waiter shot away like a stone from a catapult, leaving
Coventry to lapse back into the reverie from which he had roused himself
to order his coffee. He had dined rather early with a view to escaping the
chattering crowd which thronged the hotel, and now he was sitting alone in
a windowed corner of the _salle_, his eyes resting absently on the curving
line of coast and sea.
Set like a round silver shield in the midst of the starry sky hung a full
moon, rippling a shining highway across the deep night-blue of the
Mediterranean and turning the common-place walks of the hotel garden below
into silvern paths of mystery. But Eliot remained unmoved by the exquisite
beauty of the scene. It hardly seemed to penetrate his consciousness. He
was musing with a grim, sardonic humour on the strange chance which had
brought him, after nearly three months' solitary wandering through Europe,
to the identical hotel at Mentone where Tony Brabazon and his uncle
happened to be staying. It seemed as though fate had deliberately mocked
him--perpetrating a bitter jest at his expense. Ever since he had quitted
Silverquay he had been roving from place to place, seeking forgetfulness,
and had at last turned his steps toward Monte Carlo, hoping that in the
keen concentration and excitement of pitting his wits against the god of
chance he might temporarily drown the memories that pursued him. And then,
who should he encounter on the very first night of his arrival but Tony
Brabazon!
The boy had been seated at the next table to the one allotted to Coventry
himself, dining in company with a haughty, irascible old gentleman whom he
had introduced as his uncle, Sir Philip Brabazon. One of the most ironical
touches of the whole queer jumble of events, Eliot reflected, had been the
jolly, friendly way in which, the instant Tony caught sight of him, he
had jumped up from the table to greet him, joyfully inquiring for all the
friends he had made at Silverquay and, in particular, for Ann.
Eliot had been conscious of a curious intermingling of feeling. The very
sight of Tony, bringing with it, as it did, a quickened rush of torturing
remembrance, filled him with a kind of insensate fury. He wanted to strike
the friendly, good-humoured smile off the boy's face. And yet, underneath
the burning anger and resentment which he felt, he was fain to acknowledge
the rank injustice of it. Tony had done him no deliberate wrong, and,
ignorant of the fact that indirectly his was the agency which had brought
Eliot's happiness crashing to the ground, his open-hearted attitude of
friendliness was the most natural thing in the world. Moreover, Eliot
admitted to himself that had things been otherwise he would have felt quite
disposed to reciprocate Tony's evident good-fellowship. The boy had a
distinct charm of his own, and he had liked what little he had seen of him
at Silverquay. But, circumstances being as they were, he opposed a quiet
indifference to Tony's friendly overtures, although with characteristic
obstinacy he declined to be driven out of Mentone by the fact of the other
man's presence there.
Sometimes the Brabazons had visitors--Lady Doreen, Neville and her mother,
and on these occasions Eliot derived a certain misanthropic amusement out
of watching the incipient love affair which was obviously budding between
the two young people--a development which, he could see, was clearly
a source of satisfaction to at least one of their respective elderly
relatives. Doreen's mother was all smiles. She had other daughters coming
on.
That Tony and Doreen Neville were rapidly drifting towards the condition
known as being in love was unmistakable, and Eliot envied the pliant
facility of youth which can put the past behind and embark so soon upon
a new adventure. Surely a man who had once believed himself in love with
Ann--Ann, with her warm vitality and pluck and humour--could never be
satisfied with the frail beauty and helpless, clinging sweetness which was
all that Lady Doreen had to offer! Ann was not an easy person to forget, as
Eliot knew to his own most bitter cost. Yet Brabazon seemed able to forget.
God! If only the faculty of forgetting were purchasable!...
* * * * *
The waiter sped swiftly forward and deposited Eliot's coffee on the table
by his side, rousing him out of his bitter reflections with a jolt.
"You've been an unconscionable time!" he flung at the man irritably, and
then smiled wryly at his own irritability. His nerve must be going! A
French newspaper lay on the table at his elbow. Drawing it towards him he
deliberately immersed himself in its pages to the exclusion of the thoughts
which were torturing him.
It was thus that Tony found him an hour later when he strolled into the
_salle_, looking somewhat at a loose end and rather sorry for himself.
"Going to the tables to-night?" he asked, pausing irresolutely at Eliot's
side.
Eliot glanced up.
"No. Are you? You do most nights, don't you?" He recollected having seen
Tony's flushed, eager face opposite him at one or other of the tables on a
good many occasions.
"No. Feel off it to-night. Besides"--with a frown--"I've dropped an awful
lot of money at it lately. May I sit down?" he added, laying his hand on
the back of a chair.
Coventry put down his newspaper. It was obvious the boy wanted to talk, to
unburden himself of something. Better let him get it over and have done
with it, he reflected. A word of encouragement and the whole story came
out. Tony, it appeared, was feeling hipped. The Nevilles were leaving
Mentone, a new doctor who had been consulted having advised a more bracing
climate for Lady Doreen, and simultaneously Sir Philip had announced his
decision to return to London--a combination of events which had succeeded
in reducing Tony to unplumbed depths of despondency.
"It's rather a break-up, you see," he explained, "after nearly three months
here together. We made a topping foursome"--ingenuously. "And now it's all
over, I feel rather like a kid going back to school after the holidays."
Eliot found himself sympathising against his will. It was as difficult to
maintain an inimical attitude towards Tony as to resist the spontaneous
advances of a confiding puppy.
"Couldn't you persuade your uncle that a more bracing climate might suit
him, too?" suggested Eliot, with a faint smile.
Tony flashed him a quick glance from under his long lashes--half laughing,
half deprecating.
"That's just it," he admitted frankly. "I can't budge him. Doreen and I
are--well, half engaged, you know--"
"Half-engaged?" asked Eliot, lifting his brows.
Tony nodded, suddenly moody.
"Yes. Depending on her health and my good conduct"--rather bitterly. "So
they're swishing her off to the Swiss mountains for the one and my uncle is
removing me from the temptations of Monte Carlo for the other."
"What part of Switzerland are the Nevilles going to?" inquired Eliot, more
for the sake of saying something than because the subject held the remotest
interest for him. "Davos?"
"No. Somewhere up above Montricheux."
"Montricheux?" The word left Eliot's lips involuntarily.
"Yes. You know it, don't you?"
"I've been there"--briefly.
"I had the adventure of my life there," volunteered Tony. "I've never
forgotten it, by Jove! Up at a place called the Dents de Loup."
Had he been looking he would have seen a sudden smouldering fire wake in
the keen grey eyes of the man beside him. But he was occupied in lighting
a cigarette at the moment, and, failing to observe the change in Eliot's
expression, he pursued reminiscently:
"Yes. I was up there with a girl I'd known ever since I was a kid--we'd
almost been brought up together. And the first thing I did was to go and
skid down the side of a ravine." He puffed futilely at his cigarette.
"Blow! It's gone out."
He paused to relight it, while Eliot sat rigidly still, waiting in tense
silence for the rest of the story. It all came out quite naturally and with
a blissful unconsciousness on Tony's part that the tale could have any
particular significance for the man beside him.
"She was the pluckiest girl I know," he wound up loyally. "Took it like
a real sport and never blamed me in the least. Most women would have
clamoured for my blood."
"Yes. I think they would." Eliot replied quite mechanically. He was hardly
conscious that he had made any answer, and when, soon afterwards, Tony took
himself off with a friendly: "Well, so long. See you in the morning,
perhaps?" he responded once more like an automaton.
He was aware of only one thing. His whole consciousness concentrated on
it. Ann was innocent--utterly and entirely innocent! There was no longer
any question in his mind. Tony's transparent simplicity and candour
in recounting his adventure at the Dents de Loup and its immediate
consequences was too self-evident to doubt, and although he had refrained
from mentioning the name of the girl who had been his companion--the
"pluckiest girl he knew"--it was equally clear that he had been narrating
the mountain episode in which Ann had been concerned and for which she had
paid so dearly.
Grimly, with a ruthless resolution, Eliot faced the facts. He had
completely and very terribly wronged the woman he loved. His suspicions
had been absolutely unjustified. With his own hand he had pulled down his
happiness--his own and Ann's, too--in ruins about them.
And there could be no going back--no undoing of what had been done. A man
cannot doubt a woman, as he had doubted Ann, and then, when she is proved
transcendently innocent, go back and tell her that he believes in her. If
he did, she would be quite justified in flinging his tardy assurances of
faith back in his face and thanking him for something of very trifling
value. Even if out of the limitless tenderness of her woman's heart
Ann forgave him--as, God knows, women are forgiving men every day
that dawns!--still their love would be robbed of something infinitely
precious--tarnished by an ugly and abiding memory. What was it Ann herself
had said about love? "_It's faith... and trust, Eliot_." He remembered her
grave, steadfast eyes and groaned in spirit, realising that he himself had
despoiled love of its very pith and marrow, its deepest inner significance.
There was no way out--no atonement possible.
Motionless, sunk in the inferno of his own thoughts, Eliot remained where
Tony had left him until one of the hotel employés, who had several times
glanced uneasily in the direction of the silent Englishman occupying the
seat by the window, finally plucked up courage to begin switching off the
lights for the night.