Lord Jim
exaltation in a man appointed to be a trading-clerk, and in a place
where there was no trade--at that? Why hurl defiance at the universe?
This was not a proper frame of mind to approach any undertaking; an
improper frame of mind not only for him, I said, but for any man. He
stood still over me. Did I think so? he asked, by no means subdued, and
with a smile in which I seemed to detect suddenly something insolent.
But then I am twenty years his senior. Youth is insolent; it is its
right--its necessity; it has got to assert itself, and all assertion in
this world of doubts is a defiance, is an insolence. He went off into a
far corner, and coming back, he, figuratively speaking, turned to rend
me. I spoke like that because I--even I, who had been no end kind
to him--even I remembered--remembered--against him--what--what had
happened. And what about others--the--the--world? Where’s the wonder he
wanted to get out, meant to get out, meant to stay out--by heavens! And
I talked about proper frames of mind!
‘“It is not I or the world who remember,” I shouted. “It is you--you,
who remember.”
‘He did not flinch, and went on with heat, “Forget everything,
everybody, everybody.” . . . His voice fell. . . “But you,” he added.
‘“Yes--me too--if it would help,” I said, also in a low tone. After this
we remained silent and languid for a time as if exhausted. Then he began
again, composedly, and told me that Mr. Stein had instructed him to wait
for a month or so, to see whether it was possible for him to remain,
before he began building a new house for himself, so as to avoid
“vain expense.” He did make use of funny expressions--Stein did. “Vain
expense” was good. . . . Remain? Why! of course. He would hang on. Let
him only get in--that’s all; he would answer for it he would remain.
Never get out. It was easy enough to remain.
‘“Don’t be foolhardy,” I said, rendered uneasy by his threatening tone.
“If you only live long enough you will want to come back.”
‘“Come back to what?” he asked absently, with his eyes fixed upon the
face of a clock on the wall.
‘I was silent for a while. “Is it to be never, then?” I said. “Never,”
he repeated dreamily without looking at me, and then flew into sudden
activity. “Jove! Two o’clock, and I sail at four!”
‘It was true. A brigantine of Stein’s was leaving for the westward that
afternoon, and he had been instructed to take his passage in her, only
no orders to delay the sailing had been given. I suppose Stein forgot.
He made a rush to get his things while I went aboard my ship, where
he promised to call on his way to the outer roadstead. He turned up
accordingly in a great hurry and with a small leather valise in his
hand. This wouldn’t do, and I offered him an old tin trunk of mine
supposed to be water-tight, or at least damp-tight. He effected the
transfer by the simple process of shooting out the contents of his
valise as you would empty a sack of wheat. I saw three books in the
tumble; two small, in dark covers, and a thick green-and-gold volume--a
half-crown complete Shakespeare. “You read this?” I asked. “Yes. Best
thing to cheer up a fellow,” he said hastily. I was struck by this
appreciation, but there was no time for Shakespearian talk. A
heavy revolver and two small boxes of cartridges were lying on the
cuddy-table. “Pray take this,” I said. “It may help you to remain.”
No sooner were these words out of my mouth than I perceived what grim
meaning they could bear. “May help you to get in,” I corrected myself
remorsefully. He however was not troubled by obscure meanings; he
thanked me effusively and bolted out, calling Good-bye over his
shoulder. I heard his voice through the ship’s side urging his boatmen
to give way, and looking out of the stern-port I saw the boat rounding
under the counter. He sat in her leaning forward, exciting his men with
voice and gestures; and as he had kept the revolver in his hand and
seemed to be presenting it at their heads, I shall never forget the
scared faces of the four Javanese, and the frantic swing of their stroke
which snatched that vision from under my eyes. Then turning away, the
first thing I saw were the two boxes of cartridges on the cuddy-table.
He had forgotten to take them.
‘I ordered my gig manned at once; but Jim’s rowers, under the impression
that their lives hung on a thread while they had that madman in the
boat, made such excellent time that before I had traversed half the
distance between the two vessels I caught sight of him clambering over
the rail, and of his box being passed up. All the brigantine’s canvas
was loose, her mainsail was set, and the windlass was just beginning to
clink as I stepped upon her deck: her master, a dapper little half-caste
of forty or so, in a blue flannel suit, with lively eyes, his round
face the colour of lemon-peel, and with a thin little black moustache
drooping on each side of his thick, dark lips, came forward smirking. He
turned out, notwithstanding his self-satisfied and cheery exterior, to
be of a careworn temperament. In answer to a remark of mine (while Jim
had gone below for a moment) he said, “Oh yes. Patusan.” He was going to
carry the gentleman to the mouth of the river, but would “never ascend.”
His flowing English seemed to be derived from a dictionary compiled by
a lunatic. Had Mr. Stein desired him to “ascend,” he would have
“reverentially”--(I think he wanted to say respectfully--but devil only
knows)--“reverentially made objects for the safety of properties.”
If disregarded, he would have presented “resignation to quit.” Twelve
months ago he had made his last voyage there, and though Mr. Cornelius
“propitiated many offertories” to Mr. Rajah Allang and the “principal
populations,” on conditions which made the trade “a snare and ashes
in the mouth,” yet his ship had been fired upon from the woods by
“irresponsive parties” all the way down the river; which causing his
crew “from exposure to limb to remain silent in hidings,” the brigantine
was nearly stranded on a sandbank at the bar, where she “would have
been perishable beyond the act of man.” The angry disgust at the
recollection, the pride of his fluency, to which he turned an attentive
ear, struggled for the possession of his broad simple face. He scowled
and beamed at me, and watched with satisfaction the undeniable effect
of his phraseology. Dark frowns ran swiftly over the placid sea, and
the brigantine, with her fore-topsail to the mast and her main-boom
amidships, seemed bewildered amongst the cat’s-paws. He told me further,
gnashing his teeth, that the Rajah was a “laughable hyaena” (can’t
imagine how he got hold of hyaenas); while somebody else was many
times falser than the “weapons of a crocodile.” Keeping one eye on the
movements of his crew forward, he let loose his volubility--comparing
the place to a “cage of beasts made ravenous by long impenitence.” I
fancy he meant impunity. He had no intention, he cried, to “exhibit
himself to be made attached purposefully to robbery.” The long-drawn
wails, giving the time for the pull of the men catting the anchor,
came to an end, and he lowered his voice. “Plenty too much enough of
Patusan,” he concluded, with energy.
‘I heard afterwards he had been so indiscreet as to get himself tied up
by the neck with a rattan halter to a post planted in the middle of a
mud-hole before the Rajah’s house. He spent the best part of a day and a
whole night in that unwholesome situation, but there is every reason
to believe the thing had been meant as a sort of joke. He brooded for
a while over that horrid memory, I suppose, and then addressed in a
quarrelsome tone the man coming aft to the helm. When he turned to me
again it was to speak judicially, without passion. He would take the
gentleman to the mouth of the river at Batu Kring (Patusan town “being
situated internally,” he remarked, “thirty miles”). But in his eyes,
he continued--a tone of bored, weary conviction replacing his previous
voluble delivery--the gentleman was already “in the similitude of a
corpse.” “What? What do you say?” I asked. He assumed a startlingly
ferocious demeanour, and imitated to perfection the act of stabbing from
behind. “Already like the body of one deported,” he explained, with the
insufferably conceited air of his kind after what they imagine a display
of cleverness. Behind him I perceived Jim smiling silently at me, and
with a raised hand checking the exclamation on my lips.
‘Then, while the half-caste, bursting with importance, shouted his
orders, while the yards swung creaking and the heavy boom came surging
over, Jim and I, alone as it were, to leeward of the mainsail, clasped
each other’s hands and exchanged the last hurried words. My heart was
freed from that dull resentment which had existed side by side with
interest in his fate. The absurd chatter of the half-caste had given
more reality to the miserable dangers of his path than Stein’s careful
statements. On that occasion the sort of formality that had been always
present in our intercourse vanished from our speech; I believe I
called him “dear boy,” and he tacked on the words “old man” to some
half-uttered expression of gratitude, as though his risk set off against
my years had made us more equal in age and in feeling. There was a
moment of real and profound intimacy, unexpected and short-lived like a
glimpse of some everlasting, of some saving truth. He exerted himself to
soothe me as though he had been the more mature of the two. “All right,
all right,” he said, rapidly, and with feeling. “I promise to take care
of myself. Yes; I won’t take any risks. Not a single blessed risk. Of
course not. I mean to hang out. Don’t you worry. Jove! I feel as if
nothing could touch me. Why! this is luck from the word Go. I wouldn’t
spoil such a magnificent chance!” . . . A magnificent chance! Well, it
_was_ magnificent, but chances are what men make them, and how was I
to know? As he had said, even I--even I remembered--his--his misfortune
against him. It was true. And the best thing for him was to go.
‘My gig had dropped in the wake of the brigantine, and I saw him aft
detached upon the light of the westering sun, raising his cap high above
his head. I heard an indistinct shout, “You--shall--hear--of--me.” Of
me, or from me, I don’t know which. I think it must have been of me. My
eyes were too dazzled by the glitter of the sea below his feet to see
him clearly; I am fated never to see him clearly; but I can assure you
no man could have appeared less “in the similitude of a corpse,” as that
half-caste croaker had put it. I could see the little wretch’s face,
the shape and colour of a ripe pumpkin, poked out somewhere under Jim’s
elbow. He, too, raised his arm as if for a downward thrust. Absit omen!’
CHAPTER 24
‘The coast of Patusan (I saw it nearly two years afterwards) is straight
and sombre, and faces a misty ocean. Red trails are seen like cataracts
of rust streaming under the dark-green foliage of bushes and creepers
clothing the low cliffs. Swampy plains open out at the mouth of rivers,
with a view of jagged blue peaks beyond the vast forests. In the offing
a chain of islands, dark, crumbling shapes, stand out in the everlasting
sunlit haze like the remnants of a wall breached by the sea.
‘There is a village of fisher-folk at the mouth of the Batu Kring branch
of the estuary. The river, which had been closed so long, was open then,
and Stein’s little schooner, in which I had my passage, worked her
way up in three tides without being exposed to a fusillade from
“irresponsive parties.” Such a state of affairs belonged already to
ancient history, if I could believe the elderly headman of the fishing
village, who came on board to act as a sort of pilot. He talked to me