The Gambler
all she said—more particularly when she was endeavouring to tell me of
something or other which had happened recently. On the whole, she
appeared to be laughing at Astley, for she kept repeating that he was
waiting for her, and did I know whether, even at that moment, he was
not standing beneath the window? “Yes, yes, he is there,” she said.
“Open the window, and see if he is not.” She pushed me in that
direction; yet, no sooner did I make a movement to obey her behest than
she burst into laughter, and I remained beside her, and she embraced
me.
“Shall we go away tomorrow?” presently she asked, as though some
disturbing thought had recurred to her recollection. “How would it be
if we were to try and overtake Grandmamma? I think we should do so at
Berlin. And what think you she would have to say to us when we caught
her up, and her eyes first lit upon us? What, too, about Mr. Astley?
_He_ would not leap from the Shlangenberg for my sake! No! Of that I am
very sure!”—and she laughed. “Do you know where he is going next year?
He says he intends to go to the North Pole for scientific
investigations, and has invited me to go with him! Ha, ha, ha! He also
says that we Russians know nothing, can do nothing, without European
help. But he is a good fellow all the same. For instance, he does not
blame the General in the matter, but declares that Mlle. Blanche—that
love—But no; I do not know, I do not know.” She stopped suddenly, as
though she had said her say, and was feeling bewildered. “What poor
creatures these people are. How sorry I am for them, and for
Grandmamma! But when are you going to kill De Griers? Surely you do not
intend actually to murder him? You fool! Do you suppose that I should
_allow_ you to fight De Griers? Nor shall you kill the Baron.” Here she
burst out laughing. “How absurd you looked when you were talking to the
Burmergelms! I was watching you all the time—watching you from where I
was sitting. And how unwilling you were to go when I sent you! Oh, how
I laughed and laughed!”
Then she kissed and embraced me again; again she pressed her face to
mine with tender passion. Yet I neither saw nor heard her, for my head
was in a whirl....
It must have been about seven o’clock in the morning when I awoke.
Daylight had come, and Polina was sitting by my side—a strange
expression on her face, as though she had seen a vision and was unable
to collect her thoughts. She too had just awoken, and was now staring
at the money on the table. My head ached; it felt heavy. I attempted to
take Polina’s hand, but she pushed me from her, and leapt from the
sofa. The dawn was full of mist, for rain had fallen, yet she moved to
the window, opened it, and, leaning her elbows upon the window-sill,
thrust out her head and shoulders to take the air. In this position did
she remain for several minutes, without ever looking round at me, or
listening to what I was saying. Into my head there came the uneasy
thought: What is to happen now? How is it all to end? Suddenly Polina
rose from the window, approached the table, and, looking at me with an
expression of infinite aversion, said with lips which quivered with
anger:
“Well? Are you going to hand me over my fifty thousand francs?”
“Polina, you say that _again, again?_” I exclaimed.
“You have changed your mind, then? Ha, ha, ha! You are sorry you ever
promised them?”
On the table where, the previous night, I had counted the money there
still was lying the packet of twenty five thousand florins. I handed it
to her.
“The francs are mine, then, are they? They are mine?” she inquired
viciously as she balanced the money in her hands.
“Yes; they have _always_ been yours,” I said.
“Then _take_ your fifty thousand francs!” and she hurled them full in
my face. The packet burst as she did so, and the floor became strewed
with bank-notes. The instant that the deed was done she rushed from the
room.
At that moment she cannot have been in her right mind; yet, what was
the cause of her temporary aberration I cannot say. For a month past
she had been unwell. Yet what had brought about this _present_
condition of mind, above all things, this outburst? Had it come of
wounded pride? Had it come of despair over her decision to come to me?
Had it come of the fact that, presuming too much on my good fortune, I
had seemed to be intending to desert her (even as De Griers had done)
when once I had given her the fifty thousand francs? But, on my honour,
I had never cherished any such intention. What was at fault, I think,
was her own pride, which kept urging her not to trust me, but, rather,
to insult me—even though she had not realised the fact. In her eyes I
corresponded to De Griers, and therefore had been condemned for a fault
not wholly my own. Her mood of late had been a sort of delirium, a sort
of light-headedness—that I knew full well; yet, never had I
sufficiently taken it into consideration. Perhaps she would not pardon
me now? Ah, but this was _the present_. What about the future? Her
delirium and sickness were not likely to make her forget what she had
done in bringing me De Griers’ letter. No, she must have known what she
was doing when she brought it.
Somehow I contrived to stuff the pile of notes and gold under the bed,
to cover them over, and then to leave the room some ten minutes after
Polina. I felt sure that she had returned to her own room; wherefore, I
intended quietly to follow her, and to ask the nursemaid aid who opened
the door how her mistress was. Judge, therefore, of my surprise when,
meeting the domestic on the stairs, she informed me that Polina had not
yet returned, and that she (the domestic) was at that moment on her way
to my room in quest of her!
“Mlle. left me but ten minutes ago,” I said. “What can have become of
her?” The nursemaid looked at me reproachfully.
Already sundry rumours were flying about the hotel. Both in the office
of the commissionaire and in that of the landlord it was whispered
that, at seven o’clock that morning, the Fräulein had left the hotel,
and set off, despite the rain, in the direction of the Hôtel
d’Angleterre. From words and hints let fall I could see that the fact
of Polina having spent the night in my room was now public property.
Also, sundry rumours were circulating concerning the General’s family
affairs. It was known that last night he had gone out of his mind, and
paraded the hotel in tears; also, that the old lady who had arrived was
his mother, and that she had come from Russia on purpose to forbid her
son’s marriage with Mlle. de Cominges, as well as to cut him out of her
will if he should disobey her; also that, because he had disobeyed her,
she had squandered all her money at roulette, in order to have nothing
more to leave to him. “Oh, these Russians!” exclaimed the landlord,
with an angry toss of the head, while the bystanders laughed and the
clerk betook himself to his accounts. Also, every one had learnt about
my winnings; Karl, the corridor lacquey, was the first to congratulate
me. But with these folk I had nothing to do. My business was to set off
at full speed to the Hôtel d’Angleterre.
As yet it was early for Mr. Astley to receive visitors; but, as soon as
he learnt that it was _I_ who had arrived, he came out into the
corridor to meet me, and stood looking at me in silence with his
steel-grey eyes as he waited to hear what I had to say. I inquired
after Polina.
“She is ill,” he replied, still looking at me with his direct,
unwavering glance.
“And she is in your rooms.”
“Yes, she is in my rooms.”
“Then you are minded to keep her there?”
“Yes, I am minded to keep her there.”
“But, Mr. Astley, that will raise a scandal. It ought not to be
allowed. Besides, she is very ill. Perhaps you had not remarked that?”
“Yes, I have. It was I who told you about it. Had she not been ill, she
would not have gone and spent the night with you.”
“Then you know all about it?”
“Yes; for last night she was to have accompanied me to the house of a
relative of mine. Unfortunately, being ill, she made a mistake, and
went to your rooms instead.”
“Indeed? Then I wish you joy, Mr. Astley. Apropos, you have reminded me
of something. Were you beneath my window last night? Every moment Mlle.
Polina kept telling me to open the window and see if you were there;
after which she always smiled.”
“Indeed? No, I was not there; but I was waiting in the corridor, and
walking about the hotel.”
“She ought to see a doctor, you know, Mr. Astley.”
“Yes, she ought. I have sent for one, and, if she dies, I shall hold
you responsible.”
This surprised me.
“Pardon me,” I replied, “but what do you mean?”
“Never mind. Tell me if it is true that, last night, you won two
hundred thousand thalers?”
“No; I won a hundred thousand florins.”
“Good heavens! Then I suppose you will be off to Paris this morning?”
“Why?”
“Because all Russians who have grown rich go to Paris,” explained
Astley, as though he had read the fact in a book.
“But what could I do in Paris in summer time?—I _love_ her, Mr. Astley!
Surely you know that?”
“Indeed? I am sure that you do _not_. Moreover, if you were to stay
here, you would lose everything that you possess, and have nothing left
with which to pay your expenses in Paris. Well, good-bye now. I feel
sure that today will see you gone from here.”
“Good-bye. But I am _not_ going to Paris. Likewise—pardon me—what is to
become of this family? I mean that the affair of the General and Mlle.
Polina will soon be all over the town.”
“I daresay; yet, I hardly suppose that that will break the General’s
heart. Moreover, Mlle. Polina has a perfect right to live where she
chooses. In short, we may say that, as a family, this family has ceased
to exist.”
I departed, and found myself smiling at the Englishman’s strange
assurance that I should soon be leaving for Paris. “I suppose he means
to shoot me in a duel, should Polina die. Yes, that is what he intends
to do.” Now, although I was honestly sorry for Polina, it is a fact
that, from the moment when, the previous night, I had approached the
gaming-table, and begun to rake in the packets of bank-notes, my love
for her had entered upon a new plane. Yes, I can say that now;
although, at the time, I was barely conscious of it. Was I, then, at
heart a gambler? Did I, after all, love Polina not so _very_ much? No,
no! As God is my witness, I loved her! Even when I was returning home
from Mr. Astley’s my suffering was genuine, and my self-reproach
sincere. But presently I was to go through an exceedingly strange and
ugly experience.
I was proceeding to the General’s rooms when I heard a door near me
open, and a voice call me by name. It was Mlle.’s mother, the Widow de
Cominges who was inviting me, in her daughter’s name, to enter.
I did so; whereupon, I heard a laugh and a little cry proceed from the
bedroom (the pair occupied a suite of two apartments), where Mlle.
Blanche was just arising.
“Ah, c’est lui! Viens, donc, bête! Is it true that you have won a
mountain of gold and silver? J’aimerais mieux l’or.”
“Yes,” I replied with a smile.
“How much?”
“A hundred thousand florins.”
“Bibi, comme tu es bête! Come in here, for I can’t hear you where you
are now. Nous ferons bombance, n’est-ce pas?”
Entering her room, I found her lolling under a pink satin coverlet, and
revealing a pair of swarthy, wonderfully healthy shoulders—shoulders
such as one sees in dreams—shoulders covered over with a white cambric
nightgown which, trimmed with lace, stood out, in striking relief,
against the darkness of her skin.
“Mon fils, as-tu du cœur?” she cried when she saw me, and then giggled.
Her laugh had always been a very cheerful one, and at times it even
sounded sincere.