The Moon and Sixpence
“I think it’s rather an advantage that he doesn’t know you. You see, he
never really liked Fred; he thought him a fool; he didn’t understand
soldiers. Fred would fly into a passion, and there’d be a quarrel, and
things would be worse instead of better. If you said you came on my
behalf, he couldn’t refuse to listen to you.”
“I haven’t known you very long,” I answered. “I don’t see how anyone
can be expected to tackle a case like this unless he knows all the
details. I don’t want to pry into what doesn’t concern me. Why don’t
you go and see him yourself?”
“You forget he isn’t alone.”
I held my tongue. I saw myself calling on Charles Strickland and
sending in my card; I saw him come into the room, holding it between
finger and thumb:
“To what do I owe this honour?”
“I’ve come to see you about your wife.”
“Really. When you are a little older you will doubtless learn the
advantage of minding your own business. If you will be so good as to
turn your head slightly to the left, you will see the door. I wish you
good-afternoon.”
I foresaw that it would be difficult to make my exit with dignity, and
I wished to goodness that I had not returned to London till Mrs.
Strickland had composed her difficulties. I stole a glance at her. She
was immersed in thought. Presently she looked up at me, sighed deeply,
and smiled.
“It was all so unexpected,” she said. “We’d been married seventeen
years. I never dreamed that Charlie was the sort of man to get
infatuated with anyone. We always got on very well together. Of course,
I had a great many interests that he didn’t share.”
“Have you found out who”—I did not quite know how to express
myself—“who the person, who it is he’s gone away with?”
“No. No one seems to have an idea. It’s so strange. Generally when a
man falls in love with someone people see them about together, lunching
or something, and her friends always come and tell the wife. I had no
warning—nothing. His letter came like a thunderbolt. I thought he was
perfectly happy.”
She began to cry, poor thing, and I felt very sorry for her. But in a
little while she grew calmer.
“It’s no good making a fool of myself,” she said, drying her eyes. “The
only thing is to decide what is the best thing to do.”
She went on, talking somewhat at random, now of the recent past, then
of their first meeting and their marriage; but presently I began to
form a fairly coherent picture of their lives; and it seemed to me that
my surmises had not been incorrect. Mrs. Strickland was the daughter of
an Indian civilian, who on his retirement had settled in the depths of
the country, but it was his habit every August to take his family to
Eastbourne for change of air; and it was here, when she was twenty,
that she met Charles Strickland. He was twenty-three. They played
together, walked on the front together, listened together to the nigger
minstrels; and she had made up her mind to accept him a week before he
proposed to her. They lived in London, first in Hampstead, and then, as
he grew more prosperous, in town. Two children were born to them.
“He always seemed very fond of them. Even if he was tired of me, I
wonder that he had the heart to leave them. It’s all so incredible.
Even now I can hardly believe it’s true.”
At last she showed me the letter he had written. I was curious to see
it, but had not ventured to ask for it.
“MY DEAR AMY,
“I think you will find everything all right in the flat. I have given
Anne your instructions, and dinner will be ready for you and the
children when you come. I shall not be there to meet you. I have made
up my mind to live apart from you, and I am going to Paris in the
morning. I shall post this letter on my arrival. I shall not come back.
My decision is irrevocable.
“Yours always,
“CHARLES STRICKLAND.”
“Not a word of explanation or regret. Don’t you think it’s inhuman?”
“It’s a very strange letter under the circumstances,” I replied.
“There’s only one explanation, and that is that he’s not himself. I
don’t know who this woman is who’s got hold of him, but she’s made him
into another man. It’s evidently been going on a long time.”
“What makes you think that?”
“Fred found that out. My husband said he went to the club three or four
nights a week to play bridge. Fred knows one of the members, and said
something about Charles being a great bridge-player. The man was
surprised. He said he’d never even seen Charles in the card-room. It’s
quite clear now that when I thought Charles was at his club he was with
her.”
I was silent for a moment. Then I thought of the children.
“It must have been difficult to explain to Robert,” I said.
“Oh, I never said a word to either of them. You see, we only came up to
town the day before they had to go back to school. I had the presence
of mind to say that their father had been called away on business.”
It could not have been very easy to be bright and careless with that
sudden secret in her heart, nor to give her attention to all the things
that needed doing to get her children comfortably packed off. Mrs.
Strickland’s voice broke again.
“And what is to happen to them, poor darlings? How are we going to
live?”
She struggled for self-control, and I saw her hands clench and unclench
spasmodically. It was dreadfully painful.
“Of course I’ll go over to Paris if you think I can do any good, but
you must tell me exactly what you want me to do.”
“I want him to come back.”
“I understood from Colonel MacAndrew that you’d made up your mind to
divorce him.”
“I’ll never divorce him,” she answered with a sudden violence. “Tell
him that from me. He’ll never be able to marry that woman. I’m as
obstinate as he is, and I’ll never divorce him. I have to think of my
children.”
I think she added this to explain her attitude to me, but I thought it
was due to a very natural jealousy rather than to maternal solicitude.
“Are you in love with him still?”
“I don’t know. I want him to come back. If he’ll do that we’ll let
bygones be bygones. After all, we’ve been married for seventeen years.
I’m a broadminded woman. I wouldn’t have minded what he did as long as
I knew nothing about it. He must know that his infatuation won’t last.
If he’ll come back now everything can be smoothed over, and no one will
know anything about it.”
It chilled me a little that Mrs. Strickland should be concerned with
gossip, for I did not know then how great a part is played in women’s
life by the opinion of others. It throws a shadow of insincerity over
their most deeply felt emotions.
It was known where Strickland was staying. His partner, in a violent
letter, sent to his bank, had taunted him with hiding his whereabouts:
and Strickland, in a cynical and humourous reply, had told his partner
exactly where to find him. He was apparently living in an Hôtel.
“I’ve never heard of it,” said Mrs. Strickland. “But Fred knows it
well. He says it’s very expensive.”
She flushed darkly. I imagined that she saw her husband installed in a
luxurious suite of rooms, dining at one smart restaurant after another,
and she pictured his days spent at race-meetings and his evenings at
the play.
“It can’t go on at his age,” she said. “After all, he’s forty. I could
understand it in a young man, but I think it’s horrible in a man of his
years, with children who are nearly grown up. His health will never
stand it.”
Anger struggled in her breast with misery.
“Tell him that our home cries out for him. Everything is just the same,
and yet everything is different. I can’t live without him. I’d sooner
kill myself. Talk to him about the past, and all we’ve gone through
together. What am I to say to the children when they ask for him? His
room is exactly as it was when he left it. It’s waiting for him. We’re
all waiting for him.”
Now she told me exactly what I should say. She gave me elaborate
answers to every possible observation of his.
“You will do everything you can for me?” she said pitifully. “Tell him
what a state I’m in.”
I saw that she wished me to appeal to his sympathies by every means in
my power. She was weeping freely. I was extraordinarily touched. I felt
indignant at Strickland’s cold cruelty, and I promised to do all I
could to bring him back. I agreed to go over on the next day but one,
and to stay in Paris till I had achieved something. Then, as it was
growing late and we were both exhausted by so much emotion, I left her.
Chapter XI
During the journey I thought over my errand with misgiving. Now that I
was free from the spectacle of Mrs. Strickland’s distress I could
consider the matter more calmly. I was puzzled by the contradictions
that I saw in her behaviour. She was very unhappy, but to excite my
sympathy she was able to make a show of her unhappiness. It was evident
that she had been prepared to weep, for she had provided herself with a
sufficiency of handkerchiefs; I admired her forethought, but in
retrospect it made her tears perhaps less moving. I could not decide
whether she desired the return of her husband because she loved him, or
because she dreaded the tongue of scandal; and I was perturbed by the
suspicion that the anguish of love contemned was alloyed in her broken
heart with the pangs, sordid to my young mind, of wounded vanity. I had
not yet learnt how contradictory is human nature; I did not know how
much pose there is in the sincere, how much baseness in the noble, nor
how much goodness in the reprobate.
But there was something of an adventure in my trip, and my spirits rose
as I approached Paris. I saw myself, too, from the dramatic standpoint,
and I was pleased with my role of the trusted friend bringing back the
errant husband to his forgiving wife. I made up my mind to see
Strickland the following evening, for I felt instinctively that the
hour must be chosen with delicacy. An appeal to the emotions is little
likely to be effectual before luncheon. My own thoughts were then
constantly occupied with love, but I never could imagine connubial
bliss till after tea.
I enquired at my hotel for that in which Charles Strickland was living.
It was called the Hôtel des Belges. But the concierge, somewhat to my
surprise, had never heard of it. I had understood from Mrs. Strickland
that it was a large and sumptuous place at the back of the Rue de
Rivoli. We looked it out in the directory. The only hotel of that name
was in the Rue des Moines. The quarter was not fashionable; it was not
even respectable. I shook my head.
“I’m sure that’s not it,” I said.
The concierge shrugged his shoulders. There was no other hotel of that
name in Paris. It occurred to me that Strickland had concealed his
address, after all. In giving his partner the one I knew he was perhaps
playing a trick on him. I do not know why I had an inkling that it
would appeal to Strickland’s sense of humour to bring a furious
stockbroker over to Paris on a fool’s errand to an ill-famed house in a
mean street. Still, I thought I had better go and see. Next day about
six o’clock I took a cab to the Rue des Moines, but dismissed it at the
corner, since I preferred to walk to the hotel and look at it before I
went in. It was a street of small shops subservient to the needs of
poor people, and about the middle of it, on the left as I walked down,
was the Hôtel des Belges. My own hotel was modest enough, but it was
magnificent in comparison with this. It was a tall, shabby building,
that cannot have been painted for years, and it had so bedraggled an
air that the houses on each side of it looked neat and clean. The dirty
windows were all shut. It was not here that Charles Strickland lived in
guilty splendour with the unknown charmer for whose sake he had
abandoned honour and duty. I was vexed, for I felt that I had been made